a wind song

have you? (2)

2011-08-17T15:32:00.000-07:00

have you ever felt like...

you miss someone/people/things 'til you can't comprehend yourself ?
you miss someone/people/things 'til your chest hurts ?
you miss someone/people/things 'til suddenly your heart slowly changes the beat ?
you miss someone/people/things 'til you just want to scream it out loud ?
you miss someone/people/things 'til you want to call them back ?
you miss someone/people/things 'til you feel like empty ?

i'm just wondering.

i hope i wouldn't be the only one who feel it.

ah i miss home. i miss jakarta. i miss my parents. i miss my old friends. i miss the old days.

only God knows.

Surat Kecil untuk Indonesia

2011-08-17T02:38:00.000-07:00

Dear my beloved homeland INDONESIA,

DIRGAHAYU KE-66 INDONESIAKU :)

Indonesia, sejujurnya sedih melihat keadaanmu sekarang dari negeri seberang. mendengar berita pilu darimu hampir setiap hari. berita pilu tentang pemerintahan. berita pilu tentang keadaan alam-mu. berita pilu tentang situasi kota Jakarta. berita pilu tentang korupsi.

cukup lelah mendengar kepiluan yg terjadi. sampai kapan-kah aku harus mendengar berita pilu darimu?

yakinlah, selalu ada celah kecil dimana ada secercah cahaya masuk ketika kamu berjalan dalam kegelapan. selalu ada harapan akan fajar.

bangkit, Indonesia! jadilah macan Asia yg mengaum seperti kala dulu.

With love,

mari tetap optimis dan berdoa untuk Indonesia :)

have you?

2011-08-17T02:15:00.000-07:00

have you ever had a bad feeling?

like something bad is happening.

like you can feel it but you don't know yet.

like you try to think as positive as you can,

but it doesn't work.

like there are signs which reinforce your bad feeling.

i hope there wouldn't be any heartbreaking news.

it is hard, but it is possible

2011-07-31T22:47:00.000-07:00

summer semester will be over in 2 weeks and i'm so so so happy for it. afterward, i'll be happily having a 3-week-holiday. well, at least i have a 3-week-without-books to relax and to rest my brain :p 3 weeks that i can use to prepare myself for a big change. i know that there'll be lots of changes start from september. another changes. i just faced changes last year, leaving jakarta to study abroad, leaving my family and friends, leaving my comfortable life. i dealt with them. although it was very hard in the beginning, it wasn't impossible to deal with it. hey! i proved it. I SURVIVE :D oh yeah...and soon, i have to face other changes which is (maybe) quite challenging.

changes that i have to face :

1. moving from homestay to apartment

2. live by myself

3. take care of myself

4. first year to second year of university

5. prepare my own meal

6. meeting new people

7. dealing with different groups

8. i'll be 2-4x busier than before

i don't know how i'm going to deal with all of them. i'm sure i can do it. i know that it is not impossible to deal with the changes. however, i have to admit that there'll be some tough time for me. oh well....don't need to worry about it :) it's been taken care of. He takes care everything. i do believe and i shall not worry too much :)

(?)

2011-07-11T21:30:00.000-07:00

love.

there is only one word for love, but there are different forms of love.

love between mother and daughter. mother and son. father and daughter. father and son. siblings. best friends. boyfriend and girlfriend. husband and wife. teacher and student. fans and idol.

how can you tell the difference?

do you think linguist should make new words for the difference?

people say, "love can be deceiving"

it can be.

maybe, the reason of "love can be deceiving" because there is only one word to tell someone that you love him/her. however, that one word has lots of meanings.

Also, it can be interpreted in different ways.

it can be shown in different forms.

But, one thing that is certain about love.

it is sweet and wonderful.

it is good. it is positive.

it can change someone to be a better person.

it can conquer the bad things. the evil things.

it is not egoist, nor envious.

it is not arrogant, nor judgemental.

it gives you strength.

strength to live. strength to strive and struggle. strength to forgive.

it gives you courage.

courage to conquer your fear.

possibly, it can do something beyond your subconscious.

surprisingly, it can do something beyond your ability.

it is peaceful and genuine. harmonious.

and never ends.

If it is love, it won't be deceiving.

what else can you say about love? :)

(1 Corinthians : 4-13)

25 random thoughts - july

2011-07-11T19:24:00.000-07:00

Hey there!

i decided to do some random thoughts here, since i haven't made any :D

1. thank God for every breath that i take, for every moment i'm alive, for everything :)

2. thank You, dear Jesus for answering my prayer

3. thank God! i got accepted to 2nd year UBC :)

4. will be pursuing Bachelor of Science in Food, Nutrition and Health

5. Isaiah 41:10

6. it is summer in vancouver!

7. happy birthday, dear you. this is your month. i do hope the very best for you :)

8. roses! they are so pretty. i never get bored just looking at'em.

9. someone bailed out in last minutes of the service. it annoyed me.

10. boggie is my new baby :)

11. woman, be yourself! brain + good attitude + genuine heart = beauty ;)

12. we found a really peaceful beach close to ubc :) love the quietness.

13. i know there'll be some changes in my life. i have no worries.

14. lately, i am sort of "addicted" to a song. lebih indah by adera :) indonesian song (Y)

15. dream big! work hard, pray, believe and make it happen!

16. although i know next semester will be tougher, i'm kinda excited for the next semester.

17. music ministry will do a service on July 17. we are invited by them to participate in their fundraising event. singing for Jesus!

18. i decided to take marketing class for 2 weeks only (during summer). so i only have 1 week break. people were like "are you kidding me? taking another course in summer?" well, why not? ;)

19. oh dear! i have chemistry midterm this week >.<

20. another song that i do love :'') falling in love with Jesus - Jonathan Butler

21. i miss jakarta. yes, i always do :')

22. time does fly so fast. i'm almost done with my 1st year university courses.

23. i will move out by myself. i will definitely miss my housemom :''')

24. what's on august? i'm sure it'll be exciting ;)

25. it means THANK YOU in russian :) (read : spasiba). thanks for reading my post!

have an awesome july, folks ;)

"The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries or the way she combs her hair." - Audrey Hepburn

2011-05-18T19:25:00.000-07:00

two days ago, i watched a talk show with my housemom. i've never watched this show before but what interest me was the news! an 8-year-old girl got a botox(?!) are you kidding me?? *jawsopened* honestly, that is the most stupid and the most ridiculous news i've ever heard. that was pretty shocking. have you ever thought some kind of chemical (let's just say toxic) is being injected to your face? i repeat : being injected to your face. personally, i will not let myself do that...not even give a single try. it was shocking and sad at the same time though. look at her age...8 years old!

after listening to this news, my housemom and i had a really short-interesting conversation about the concept of beauty. she said, "Most woman nowadays seem to have opposite concept of beauty to woman in 1970's, where inner beauty and intelligence are vital." my spontaneous comment was, "oh wow! 1970's woman are smarter. that is so pathetic, though. i mean pathetic for woman nowadays who still think to alter their looks for the sake of beauty." she told me about woman in 1970's. she said that woman in 1970's weren't taught to be aggressive. most woman in 1970's were taught to be an educated person. intelligence is part of their beauty. they weren't taught to be weak and cheap. they were taught to be elegant. they weren't taught to go after a man.

i agree with her. inner beauty and intelligence are important. obviously, most woman now care about how their looks and shapes instead of their personalities. oh, come on woman! i'm sorry to say this...but seriously i dislike those who seem to be cheap. what i mean by cheap : spoiled, chasing after a guy for his money/job/popularity, dependent and 'stupid' - trading love for sex. well, you name it, folks!

note this : woman, you are beautiful! you don't need to alter your looks. you don't need to focus on your weight. however, improve your inner beauty. build your self-esteem through improving personalities and intelligence. i'm sure that everyone can see your beauty :)

"The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mode but the true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives the passion that she shows. The beauty of a woman grows with the passing years" - Audrey Hepburn

"Character contributes to beauty. It fortifies a woman as her youth fades. A mode of conduct, a standard of courage, discipline, fortitude, and integrity can do a great deal to make a woman beautiful" - Jacqueline Bisset

brain + behaviour = beauty ;)

2011-05-15T00:17:00.000-07:00

"When you’re in love, sometimes you have to swallow your pride, and sometimes you have to keep your pride. It’s a balance. But when the relationship is right, you find the balance."

Emily Giffin (Something Borrowed)

old town with FUN weirdos (besties) :)

2011-04-29T08:44:00.000-07:00

old town! so last tuesday, me and my besties went to old town in jakarta :) before i tell you the story, let me introduce my weirdos also known as my besties :p they are Kinnata Niko Arjuna (Kindol) and Jennifer Aliwarga (Jedut).

our meeting point is at ITC Permata Hijau at 8 am. we should've gone by 8, but since Kindol was late, we went at 9. honestly i was a bit mad when he said that he would be late. it wasn't the first time. so i made up a quite "evil" plan. i pretended to be kidnapped by strangers. i pretended that i was lost somewhere. he believed it. he was panic and stress. he said that it was such a depressing moment when you are trapped in a traffic jam with two people phoning you again and again, telling you that they are scarred, they are lost nowhere because of you. HAHA! i'm really sorry for that. but to be honest, it was fun to trick you in that situation. HILARIOUS! :D

finally, we arrived at Gondangdia Station :) that was the first time i took train in jakarta. ok i'm sorry for being a spoil girl. well i never thought that i would take a train here, in jakarta! and i never thought that jakarta had a nice place like old town.

we went to Museum Bank Indonesia, Museum Wayang and Batavia Cafe. i really like Museum Bank Indonesia. i never thought that jakarta had a really nice and well-preserved place like this. the old town itself is amazing. the buildings are quite old. the architecture and the design of the buildings are unique. it is the heritage from Netherlands (correct me if my spelling is wrong) haha. it was quite hot on that day. but hey, it doesn't matter if you go with two fun people.

GONDANGDIA :) starting point

three of us @ museum bank indonesia

one of the very old buildings :)

@ Batavia Cafe - i love the design of this cafe

i did enjoy my time with them. it was a great trip. lots of silly things happened. and great friends :) i call it as wonderful day with great friends :D oh btw, i haven't mentioned about my missing friend : Abel Prasetyo. he is still in chicago. i wish he could join this trip though. hopefully we can do this next year..and should be complete which is 4 of us.

that's all that i wanna share about my trip. have a nice day, people! :D

2011

2011-01-09T13:24:00.000-08:00

goodbye 2010! hello 2011!

life is always full of goodbyes and hellos. when there is a goodbye, i believe there'll be lots (more) hellos :)

well if you ask me what my resolutions are for this year, i can't say much. i hope everything will be better than before. everything will be greater than before.

ok, i'm trying to make a resolution. well these are just a simple one. i think it is more to targets or goals rather than resolution. (HAHA)

1. get A at least in one of my courses. with no C :)

2. volunteer more

3. transfer to UBC :) *this is my dream university*

4. get work permit

5. get U.S visa

6. travel to victoria on summer

7. go home (JAKARTA, I MISS YOU)

8. sleep at least 8-9 hours a day

9. have a good resume for this year (work experience and volunteers)

well i guess that's all :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011, PEOPLE!

GOD BLESS Y'ALL MORE AND MORE AND MORE :*

2010 christmas wish

2010-12-25T22:45:00.000-08:00

dear God,

i have 5 christmas wish. these wishes might not be a simple wish. i might be not the only one who ask you for this. i might not be the first person who ask you for this. i might be the 324789 people who ask you for this. however, i am begging you to keep listen to my wishes. i believe you aren't bored to hear the same wishes again and again, are you? :) here are my wishes :

1. no more wars

2. no more hunger

3. no violence for children, teenagers, adults (all mankind)

4. all mankind would have love, faith and hope

5. world in peace

Amen :)

-Merry Christmas 2010-

2010-12-25T22:16:00.000-08:00

"For unto us a child is born, unto us a child is given; and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace." (Isaiah 9:6)

May joy, love and peace will always be in our heart. May the spirit of christmas stays in our heart all through the year.

Merry Christmas, people :)

God bless you all!

Warm regards,
Windi

when you believe

2010-12-24T16:23:00.000-08:00

i had a debate with my friend from kazakhstan about miracle. well, i always have a debate almost every time we meet. i don't mean to have one, but i think we always have one because we are very different in a way we see things :)

i do believe in miracle. i do have hope that miracle will happen for those who believe. some cases, it happens even for those who don't believe in miracle. i'm not saying that it will happen by itself, still, you ought to work for it.

however, this guy told me that miracle doesn't exist. this is the first time i met a person who doesn't believe in miracle. another friend from colombia does believe in miracle. and it is so interesting when he tried to explain what miracle is for him.

my colombian friend defines his miracle as healthy, happy, his mom is coming for christmas, he can pay his classes. for him, it is like a magic.

i define miracle as something that you feel

"it is too good to be true, but you have it for real now".

my version of miracle : i've been raised in a good family. i'm studying in canada. i have good friends. i have people who support me and cheer me. i'm always safe every time i go home at night. walking alone. i have the nicest homestay family. i passed my very first semester in canada.

it is all miracles. it happens. and so real. i call it as a gift from Him :) a gift that i should (have to) be so grateful. miracle for me is a gift from Him. thank God for all of that. thank God for the miracles.

we pray and hope for a miracle. sometimes, it won't come by itself. you have to make one. you have to work for things to happen. sometimes, the miracle lies on you. sometimes, the miracle does happen but you don't realize it.

i do believe miracle does exist in my life and your life. pray. work. and BELIEVE!

"there can be miracles, when you believe."

25 random thoughts - december

2010-12-19T14:08:00.000-08:00

hi there :) it's been a while i haven't posted 25 random thoughts. well, now i'll make one!

1. thank God for everything

2. i miss my piano

3. i miss JAKARTA

4. thank God for my very 1st semester here

5. thank God for my friends

kev.do.win

me.agnes.margaret

we love cupcakes :)

@downtown

6. i LOVE christmas

7. i wish i could go home

8. what will my 2nd semester be?

9. i want cupcakes

sweet 16.gingerbread.chocolate

10. i can't wait for movie day

11. CHRISTMAS :))

12. YOU!

13. i can't wait to meet you, you and you dear friends :)

14. omg! time does fly so fast.

15. soon, we're gonna change the calendar to 2011

16. i miss PIM, a mall where i like to go

outside

inside

17. what's on january?

18. i can't wait for christmas dinner tonight

19. december 24, midnight mass!

20. will i survive here?

21. august, i'll be home

22. i hope my next semester will be better

23. WHISTLER on dec 27 - 29 :)

24. happy holiday, people!

25. errr, should i start to make resolutions for 2011? ;)

10 traits

2010-12-13T21:43:00.000-08:00

i read my friend's blog about this. try this : http://www.signalpatterns.com :)
just for fun :)

so here are my 10 traits according to that website :

Aesthetic

You appreciate art, beauty, and design; you know that they are not superficial but absolutely crucial to living the good life. You have good taste, and you're proud of it. Those with a high score on the "aesthetic" trait are often employed in literary or artistic professions, enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about the arts, reading, and travel.

You don't think it's pretentious to be moved by art and beauty. You're not one of those who believe it doesn't matter what something looks like as long as it does its job.

Sympathetic

You have a knack for knowing what's going on in the hearts and minds of those around you, without their having to tell you explicitly. People tend to turn to you with their problems because they know you care, and that you will likely offer good advice and a helping hand.

You do not feel that people with sad stories are just looking for attention, or have brought their problems upon themselves.

Warm

You have a genuine interest in other people. You're a natural host, and are always thinking about how you can increase the happiness of those around you. When friends have problems or are in trouble, you're usually the first person they turn to for aid and comfort. Scoring high on the "warm" trait suggests that you are among those who enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.

You don't always say exactly what you're thinking; you don't like the idea of causing anyone pain because of your criticism.

Empathetic

You are in touch with your own feelings, which helps put you in touch with the feelings of others.

You don't buy the logic that your happiness comes ahead of everyone else's because unless you're happy you're incapable of making anyone else happy.

Introspective

You like your own company; you're a very interesting person. Tracking your own mental processes, knowing what you're thinking and why you do what you do, is important to you. Often, what's going on in your mind is more compelling than what's going on outside. For the most part, those with a high score on the "introspective" trait enjoy reading, taking long walks, learning new things, and other solitary activities.

You are not someone who is constantly looking to be among a group of friends; you never feel bored when you are by yourself.

Original

You are constantly coming up with new ideas. For you, the world as it exists is just a jumping-off place; what's going on inside your mind is often more interesting than what's going on outside.

You don't feel that the road to success is to be a realist and stick to the program; you never stop yourself from coming up with new ideas or telling the world what you're thinking about.

Assertive

You behave in a confident and forceful manner, take charge of the situation, raise your hand in class, stand up for what you think is right, and lead others. Among those who have a high score on the "assertive" trait, many have jobs in which they are valued for their organizational skills as well as their talent for supervising others.

You are not interested in fading into the woodwork, leaving everything to fate, taking more time than necessary to accomplish a task, or avoiding confrontation.

Cooperative

You enjoy teamwork, play well with others, and prefer getting along to winning.

You're not compelled to win every contest nor to be right all the time.

Understanding

You are willing to take the time to find out what's going on with other people, especially if they're in distress. You're a good listener, you don't criticize, and you offer unbiased, respectful, honest advice when it's requested. With a high score on the "understanding" trait, it is likely that you are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.

You don't feel the need to impose your standards on others or say things that, even though true, cause pain.

Scrupulous

You are an honest, fair person. You don't lie or cheat to get ahead. You treat others with respect and hope for the same in return.

You do not feel that you are above the rules that everyone else follows; you are definitely not willing to do whatever it takes to get ahead.

what's yours, people? :)

popping words before december

2010-11-30T23:07:00.000-08:00

hey! today is the end of november. tomorrow is december already. don't you think time fly so fast? i feel like i've just came here couple of weeks ago. it seems like i've just started my first semester. and now i am almost at the end of semester, FINAL EXAM! oh dear! i thought 1 year here will be so long. don't you think so?

once someone told me, 1 year won't be that long. at first, i thought he only tried to cheer me up. he only tried to support me, so i won't be afraid to go to canada. well, i guess he is right. i've been here for 4 months. 6 months to go. 1 year will not be as long as you thought (i thought).

i'm soooo going to count for christmas. it's been always be my favourite day since i was a little girl. houses are decorated with lights and red-green stuffs. churches are decorated with baby Jesus, hutch, christmas trees and other things. it is so beautiful. oh and christmas songs :) i love to sing it! i do like to attend midnight mass for christmas. it is so sacred. i don't know how to explain this, but i'll try. the part that i like is the candles. each person holds a candle and sings christmas songs to welcome baby Jesus. if you experience it, for me, it is like "divine intervention". you should feel it by yourself. it feels so warm, joyful, blessed and peaceful.

actually that is not what i want to talk about in this post but my hands keep typing whatever words pop up in my head.

so, here is what i feel recently.. before NOVember becomes DECember.

your bestfriend may leave you. your boyfriend may ditch you. keep in mind, you still have your God :) as long as He is with you, as long as you don't leave Him, you'll always be fine. He is the one who will never leave you.

people may come and go in your life, but He will always stay in your life :)

sebentar dan lama

2010-11-28T19:10:00.000-08:00

before

friends : kapan berangkat ke canada, win?

gw : 11 agustus

friends : wah, sebentar lagi dong. cepet banget

gw : iya nih...

now

friends : kapan balik ke indo, win? december balik ga?

gw : december ga balik. next year baru balik :(

friends : bulan apa balik?

gw : sekitar agustus

friends : yaah masih lama banget

"sebentar lagi", "cepat banget" menunjukkan waktu berjalan begitu cepat. perpisahan akan segera terjadi. "masih lama" menunjukkan agustus sangat amat jauh kyk seabad lagi dan jadi merasa jauh sangat. seakan terjebak sampai agustus ga bisa pulang.

untitled

2010-11-27T21:06:00.000-08:00

so true :) sometimes we have to leave our comfort zone. it is not always easy as you think to leave a comfort zone. however, i believe that there'll be something good at the end :)

it happened to some people. too late to realize it. regretting.

2010-11-24T20:32:00.000-08:00

some indonesian people do not feel proud to be indonesian. they don't proud with their country. i can't understand. i feel proud to be one. i feel thankful to be an indonesian born.

i asked some of them why they don't feel the same with me, and i got an answer. the reason is the politic problems that are happening in indonesia. corruption.

politic problems? is that why you hate your country? i don't think that will be a good reason though.

do not hate the country. the country itself has nothing to do with a bad situation that caused by the people. instead of blaming the country, it'd be reasonable to blame the people, greedy people. all the corruption, politic tricks and economics, they exist because of humans. some bad people. greedy people who don't care about others. all problems in a country is caused by humans. not a country itself. the root of the problems is humans.

indonesia is a beautiful country. it has lots of diversity. i do like its natural beauty. the corruptions and other problems from humans are the things which contaminate its natural beauty. its culture. human is the one who ruins the country, thus, you can't blame the country.

as always, be grateful peps for wherever you come from :)

please people, do care of our country! respect :)

-there is no bad country in this world. each country has its beauty-

-from canada, with hugs for indonesian-

2010-11-24T01:35:00.000-08:00

HEY THERE :)

on november 18, there was an international day in my college. there were many booths from various countries. uganda, saudi arabia, philippine, japan, china, mexican, and INDONESIA :) where i come from.

my friends and I made the booth together. we tried as best as we could, since we only had one day to prepare. i did enjoy the international day. it was so interesting to see lots of people from other countries and share the cultures. we presented congklak as our traditional game. we served kopiko as our coffee candy and kerupuk udang :) we decorated our booth by indonesian pictures.

many people came to our booth to play congklak. to be honest, it was so hard to explain the rules. at first, i had no idea what the terms in english for some traditional indonesian words. anyway, they found congklak is fun. the funny thing was some people couldn't grab the seeds at once and put the seed continuously to the hole with one hand. some of them were fascinated when we showed how to do it.

some people were fascinated by the pictures that we sticked it on the board. they asked about the komodo's picture. they asked about komodo island :) they also asked about borobudur. they said that it looked very ancient and great. i proudly said that it was one of a seven wonder in the world. am i right? :)

a man came to the booth. he chatted with us. he's been to indonesia. he likes to give lecture in a university in surabaya. he asked about merapi and other disasters that happened in indonesia for this couple of months.

a lady came to the booth. she looked at the pictures. she said she's been to bali. she came right after the bomb. wow! she said that she likes bali and would like to go back there for vacation. isn't that a good thing? :))

a girl passed our booth in a hurry. she asked whether we sold bakso and satay. i was shocked at first when she mentioned bakso and satay. i thought she was indonesian. but definitely not indonesian. she said she really wanted to eat bakso and satay again. she's tried once in an indonesian restaurant in vancouver. well, too bad we didn't sell bakso and satay :(

overall, international day was so fun :) it made me realize how beautiful our world is. it made me proud to be indonesian :)

indonesian is a beautiful country. please take care of it, people!

us, indonesian students :)
(ade, yanto, aldo, kevin, me)

yanto showed how to play congklak :)

many people came to our booth.
i played congklak with canadian student :)

sit and listen

2010-10-29T00:33:00.000-07:00

my blog is so dead. well now i'm starting to write again. my thoughts.

sometimes, when you tell a story to a person who you feel a friend of yours, there are some common feedbacks that you'll get. either one of this feedback : they will just sit and listen. they will give you lecture. they will give comments on every single little things to you. they just pretend to listen, but they're not.

it will be better to sit and listen rather than give comments. sometimes you just need someone to sit and listen to your story. or i should say "listening". that is all what you need. someone who is listening to you. by mean listening, they comprehend your story and think about it.

comments. everyone likes to do this rather than listen. people tend to give comments on something they see, they hear and they feel. it's been human nature to give comments, to express opinions. however, comments might be a tendency to show judging behaviour. be careful with it! giving comments might be dangerous if you don't know how the proper way is. it might hurt a person's feeling. it might make your friend upset. i didn't say that giving comments is always bad. it can be dangerous. however, it can be good things if you know how to do it and you give a right comment.

lectures. some people might do this. they feel superior enough to give lectures. they feel that they are experienced enough to give lectures. still. be careful with it, because maybe you are not that superior enough or experienced enough to give any lectures :)

"a friend will just sit and listen to your story"

-GW-

2010-09-20T23:55:00.000-07:00

you looks familiar to me. seems like i saw you before.

i think i know you.

but somehow, you're like a new stranger to me.

is it a-real-you the one that i know?

or another you?

"it is sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew"

homesick

2010-09-19T00:23:00.000-07:00

hi there! i haven't posted anything on this blog since my departure. yes, i am in vancouver, canada. it's been a month and 1 week since i arrived here.

at first, i felt fun! start something new will be a thing that always excite you. gives you another sensation. new spirit. excitement. i've met so many people here. and thanks God, there're so many blessed i got. i always thankful for His kindness. every time i face difficulties, somehow there is always a way to get over it, to solve it. sometimes in a weird way, through strangers, through the simplest things..you'll find His answers.

i've met so many new friends and people here that somehow gradually decrease my loneliness and my concerns whether i could get good friends or not. yes, i had fun with them. and again, i thank Him for that :)

i am grateful to be in vancouver. i am grateful to feel such a good education, since i realize that not everyone has a chance like me.

and now..homesick! i thought i could ignore it since i've met so many friends, new things and excitement, but you can't escape it. you have to go through it. it feels so bad to be miles away from your house. your home sweet home. your lovely hometown in where you've lived since you were born. deep down, i admit that something is missing. something which you cannot describe it literally. at this point, i miss my home. i miss my parents. i used to come to my parents' room, talk to them, chit chat, joking, teasing. i can't do it now. i used to tell a story about my day, gossiping with them. now? i talk to myself, my mind. when someone told me that homesick will be the hardest part or homesick feels worst and tough..i always think they're exaggerating. i thought that it won't be that hard. it won't be that bad. and yeah, now i know how it feels, they're right. it is worst! it is sad.

let me try to describe it a bit. it feels like you need a hug. you do need a hug, you do want a hug. even a-short-time-hug, a-quick-hug, even for 1 second. but then suddenly you realize you cannot have it. you cannot get it, because it is almost impossible to get one from a person that you miss the most. it is not because they're gone. it is because they're so far away from you in distance. they're thousands miles away from you :')

i love you, guys :)

2010-08-08T10:17:00.000-07:00

i feel very grateful for being surrounded by friends like them :) when i feel sad, they try to cheer me up. when i have problems, they offer me ears to listen. when i feel happy, they smile and laugh for me. when i feel lost, they give me hug. when i am crying, they wipe my tears. when i feel angry, they try to chill me. thanks Lord, you give me such a wonderful friendship :)

jj.abel.kinnata.windi

we may not perfect, but we love each other. the imperfections are the beauty of our friendship :)

"kamu sangat berarti, istimewa dihati

selamanya rasa ini.

Jika tua nanti kita kan hidup masing-masing,

ingatlah hari ini"

August 6, 2010 :)

quick post

2010-08-03T10:18:00.000-07:00

you might check this out. it is just a little project of me and my friends. well, it is far from perfect though. hope you enjooooy :D

click here

H-7 to departure

2010-08-03T10:07:00.000-07:00

hey there! it's been H-7 before i leave to vancouver. lately, i feel there are so much things on my mind but somehow i just can not write it down. i guess because it is just way too much and i don't know how to organize it. and yes, my current feeling is mixed up with my departure and another else. ok, guess i'll be talking around the bus.

as i told you before, it is H-7 to my departure. it feels like i'm running out of time. it feels like i need to finish whats undone. it feels like i can almost feel every beats on my heart *ok i'm exaggerating. LOL

i really want to spend my 7 last days in indonesia with my family, high school friends, junior high school friends, music mates and others.

when i saw my baggage on my room, i feel like i don't want to touch it. i don't want to put anything on it. my mom told me to put some of my winter coats and some of my things, but i don't have any desire or motivation to do that. i feel like i still have tomorrow. i hate to pack my things. well, i tried to put some of those winter coats and yes i did not enjoy it.

7 days ahead i won't be in indonesia. i will leave indonesia. i will leave my comfort zone. i did not believe that time flies so fast. too fast for me. and in 7 days my life will be change. new life. new environment. new friends. new. new. new. and new. i have no idea what it will be. i barely imagine what my life will be. i guess no one can't imagine it :(

ok, enough of the drama. see you in vancouver!

be grateful

2010-06-16T06:06:00.000-07:00

could you imagine to live beside a metal factory which everyday produce such a dangerous air pollution? have you ever imagined that someone, perhaps some people live on that kind of life? yes, there are some people. children. teenagers. adults.

have you ever thought that we live in a very comfortable life? i bold it, in a very comfortable life.

on the last two weeks i visited a settlement in pulo gadung. well i don't know whether it is still suitable enough to call this place a "settlement". i was shocked. terrified. sad. speechless. mixed up.

can you see the smoke on the picture? yes, that is the pollution. i guess it is more like a dangerous particle from metal which is bad for human's health especially for lungs. this is what i mentioned before, the settlement.

they are some of them who attend school precisely beside the metal factory, live beside the metal factory.

i am amazed by the situation. look at them, they are still able to smile and enjoy their school-time. i admit that they are tougher than us. they are still excited on attending school. i really feel their spirit to learn more, to know more :') i don't know how to put all the sensations and feeling into words, but for sure, it is quite unique and mixed up.

when i saw them i realize that i am such a lucky girl. i am the luckiest girl to have a comfortable life. thank God for that.

i started to compare them to us. how about us? we complained about our classrooms which have only fans, not an AC on it. we complained to go to school, to meet teachers who like to complain about our performance, to meet some teachers who are annoying, to face some boring subjects.

you are stupid if you keep complaining about your life. there are lots and lots of people who are not as lucky as us. people who feel much a-bitter-life than us. people who are worst than us.

so, stop complaining about every little things, every little pieces of your life that you don't like, that you don't hope to taste it in your life. always remember, be grateful on whatever happened in your life :)

and a little prayer for them : dear God, please always take care of them. days and nights. please give them strength and a tough heart to face their life. please bless them, always :)

prom and high school

2010-05-20T23:05:00.000-07:00

prom night was indescribable. fabulous. i will never forget the night. one night. a night when love, tears, happiness and sadness exist, blur into a some kind of unique emotion.

"life is not counted by every breath you take, it is more to every moments you have"

i will miss my high school time. i realize that sometimes you hate some moments when it happens to your life. you are bored to attend school. you hate some friends who are mean to you or when you have a fight. you hate when some friends talk about you, when some friends make gossips about you. despite all of that, you will miss them. you'll miss some subjects at school. you'll miss the teachers. you'll miss how it feels to wake up in an early morning to attend school. you'll miss how to make yourself sit in the class and listen to the teacher patiently. you'll miss your friends, those who make gossips, those who usually throw some jokes to you, make fun of you, those who share sweet moments together and those who listen to your stories, your problems.

in the end, you realize some moments that you were not enjoy, are the moments that you will miss.

and now, i miss it. unfortunately, i can not go back to that time. i will remember all of you. i will remember all of the lessons you've taught me through moments :) thank you God, you let me be their friends, you put me to the best high-school time. thanks for the memories :)

us. at the end of the night :)

first year

2010-05-18T18:53:00.000-07:00

i had a flashback. it brings me back to my first year at st.laurensia - my school. 1st year when i became extremely a stranger. a new comer. a new student.

i made friends. i always note this to myself - do not choose your friends by race, skin-color, religion, popular or not popular! be friends with all of them. respect them. do not ever be a backstab on your friendship. do not be a hypocrite. and one thing, always be yourself whenever you get into new 'world'. do not change your personality in order to get fit in - that is ridiculous. always be yourself even you're nobody. and friends are them who will accept whatever in you, even you're nobody :)

i remember some moments with some of friends :)

remember this? study trip to jogja. with room-mates and new friends :)

carla.felia.me.sindong

jay.alain.me.chris.alvin

i miss this group! we call ourselves as jamumapan ;)

remember, that's our newsletter. thank you guys, you are my bestfriends and always be!

"In good times, in bad times I'll be on your side forever more, that's what friends are for."

- That's What Friends Are For -

"There are many types of ships. There are wooden ships, plastic ships, and metal ships. but the best and most important types of ships are friendships"
- Old Irish Quote -

"True friendship is a plant of slow growth, and must undergo and withstand the shocks of adversity before it is entitled to the appellation."
- George Washington -

pieces of thoughts part 1

2010-05-14T08:19:00.000-07:00

1. don't judge a book by its cover

i know that people have used that quotes for hundred of times. still. it sounds great to me. i like it though. most of us like to judge people on their first appearance, their first meeting. i mean yes, you can have a first impression for people but, hey, it doesn't mean to judge them. judging and having a first impression is totally a different part. in other words, mother teressa stated "if you judge people, you don't have time to love them". it is so true! when you've judged people on the first time, you don't have time to know them deeper. you don't want to know them more since you have your own narrow minds, narrow perspectives. you don't see them in a wide views. you'll never know that a rebel teenager on school might be a kind-hearted-teenager outside school, taking care of street people, orphanage, etc. you'll never know a man who looks happy with his status as a gay might feel tormented deeper in his heart. as i told you before, don't judge! judging people can ruin a relationship. friendship. any social relationship. i think it is better to observe and analyze them carefully before you judge them immediately.

2. everything happens for a reason

yes, i do believe there is no coincidence in this world. there are several reasons, or at least there is a reason on every situations. the problem is, sometimes we don't know the reason on that moment. we haven't realized the reason yet. we haven't figured out the reason yet. sometimes, it requires time to fully understand the reason of something. believe me, you'll find an answer, a reason that you seek. you need to put a little more patience. do not be crazy on seeking a reason, you'll never find it. in addition, i do believe something happens for our own good since there is someone who is bigger than us, has a plan for everyone :)

3. diversity is awesome!

i do hate when people start to dispute about differences. i hate when they start to talk about different race, different skin-color, different religion. hey, what is wrong on having differences in this world? thats what makes us unique. diversity put colors in human's life. a world without diversity is such a boring world as if we are standing in a dry large desert. a world without diversity is tasteless. therefore, stop debating on differences. i think it will be much better if we see differences as a beauty. i can't even imagine to live in a world without diversity - too scary.

*have a great day people!

emotion

2010-05-03T04:44:00.001-07:00

i remember on what my piano teacher told me so many times. he told me that good pianists are them who are able to control their emotion. yes, it is so true. they should know the portion on producing the right sound, how to balancing the sound between right and left hands. he told me whenever i play a song which requires speed, don't be too emotional. do not rush. when i rush, i completely ruin the song. whenever i need to do forte (loud) and fortissimo (very loud), he told me to manage. do not produce a rough sound, do not bang the piano. he told me to take control when i play.

i realize that he is right. control. good people, a success one are them who are able to manage and to control their emotion. even though bad things happened in your life, do not be too emotional. it is the same as when you play a fast song in minor keys. in some parts, you need to produce a loud sound to make it more dramatic or to show anger. you should control it, do not be too loud, do not rush, unless you ruin the song - you ruin your life. you aggravate the problems. take a deep breath and manage yourself. not just the bad ones, even the good things. do not be too happy, do not be too overexcited.

thanks to him, what a good lesson he taught me through music :)

pencil and eraser

2010-04-19T19:48:00.000-07:00

i found this picture on a website. i decided to post it here :) enjoy.

happiness

2010-04-16T20:11:00.000-07:00

simple thing. happiness. yes, that is one of my dreams. i don't say that i am not happy with my recent life. i mean someday i want to have a job which is suitable with me. a job which my heart desired. my happiness is when i could give something back and precious to the society, when my parents are proud of my achievements and when i have someone who understands me and my dreams.

what's yours?

Q's

2010-04-14T05:23:00.000-07:00

where are you?

people may change

is it you the one who change or me?

stupid questions.

*you will never know how precious someone or moments till you miss them.

have a little faith by mitch albom

2010-04-12T05:22:00.000-07:00

you should put this book into your reading list :) "have a little faith" by mitch albom. it is a true story of a jewish reb and a pastor. they have different religions, different beliefs, but they both teach us about one similar thing, love. for the poor one. for needy people. for homeless people. for them who were once being drug sellers. for them who have lost their tracks. for them who are seeking for God. for every human, living creatures. they also teach us about unity - we are from one God. i really adore this book. the more you read it, the more you fall in love with this book. here is one of my favorite parts from the book which is a conversation between mitch and albert lewis (the reb) :

"Ask yourself, Why did God create but one man? Why, if he meant for there to be faiths bickering with each other, didn't he create that from the start? He created trees, right? Not one tree, countless trees. Why not the same with man? Because we are all from that one man-and all from that one God. That's the message."

"Then why is the world so fractured?"

"Well, you can look at this way. Would you want the world to all look alike? No. The genius of life is its variety. Even in our own faith, we have questions and answers, interpretations, debates. In Christianity, in Catholicism, in other faiths, the same thing-debates, interpretations. That is the beauty. It's like being a musician. If you found the note, and you kept hitting that note all the time, you would go nuts. It's the blending of the different notes that makes the music."

"The music of what?"

"Of believing in something bigger than yourself."

"But what if someone from another faith won't recognize yours? Or wants you dead for it?"

"That is not faith. That is hate. And if you ask me. God sits up there and cries when that happens."

*the genius of life is its variety

junk

2010-04-05T05:40:00.000-07:00

sesuai judulnya "junk" dan kebetulan ini post ke-66 *angka setan well ga ada hubungannya juga sih.. gw mau mengeluuhh, berkhayal hal-hal yang absurd and unimportant. so, you feel free to ignore this post :)

i wish Ken Arok and Ken Dedes were still alive, so i could interview them for my history test. gw mulai bosan belajar! recently, rasanya udah nggak ada passion untuk belajar. honestly, uan dan try out2 kemarin udah cukup memforsir otak gw untuk bekerja under HARD pressure. uan kemarin kayak puncak otak gw bekerja setelah diforsir cukup lama. gw udah capek capek capek dan butuh liburan liburan liburan secepatnya! gw butuh menjauh dari kehidupan sekolah which is belajar. setelah liburan gw bakal balik lagi kok menjadi anak baik, belajar dan mencapai cita2, but i need a loooooong holiday immediately! 3 bulan berhenti dari kegiatan or rutinitas sehari2 dengan kegiatan yang baru dan nggak membosankan, itu yang gw butuhkan..liburan! come on, hidup nggak cuma untuk belajar hal2 yang itu2 aja. gw mau belajar hal2 lain ah liburan ini. penat berkutat dengan buku.

coba yaa kalo gw punya mesin waktu, well nggak akan gw pake untuk merubah masa lalu or liat masa depan gw sih..no need. tapi bakal gw pake buat interview langsung dengan orang2 yang udah nggak ada, i mean historical people. it will be more fun to learn history through a time machine :D then gw pake untuk belajar peristiwa2 yang bersejarah, tapi nggak mau ke masa perang dunia juga ntr kena bom hiroshima dan nagasaki, goodbye people!

i wish i could teleport! wow! kalo ada kemampuan itu gw pasti langsung pake untuk teleport ke tempat-tempat yang unik dalam waktu yang singkat. disaat gw lagi penat butuh liburan, dengan gampang gw akan teleport ke pantai..wohooo! kalo udara jakarta lagi panaas banget bikin gerah keringetan gw akan teleport ke negara yang bersalju *brrr :D

AH CUKUP BERKHAYALNYA. now, back to reality, back to work! fokus fokus! sabar sabar! 2 minggu lagi. come on! oh 16th of april, i'm waiting for you :)

special post

2010-03-31T03:12:00.000-07:00

hello people! it's 31st of march :D this is a very special post for a best friend :)

today is her birthday. therefore, i wish you a........

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELIA TUNGGAL XD

wishing you a very very crazy, sweet and unforgettable birthday

*kiss and hugs from me, dear :)

miss youuuu, if you were here i would double all the things that you gave to me on my birthday 2 years ago, remember? i haven't made any revenge!lol.

"wherever you go, don't forget to bring your sunshine"

25 very very random thoughts

2010-03-30T05:20:00.000-07:00

stuck. there are so many things on my mind. love. friendship. exams. school. university. dreams. music. guess, i'll do the random thoughts to describe it all.

1. thanks God, finally we did the national exams. *now, hoping for good scores.

2. thanks God, it is over.

3. failure is a friend of mine :) someone told me, when you never taste a failure, you get into a real problem.

4. i am trying my best not to fall in love since i know it'll hurt soon, but it is hard :(

5. i am controlling my feeling.

6. tears make me stronger :)

7. love is scary, huh?

8. could you please go out from my happy life? or at least, back off!

9. it is better to have you as a good friend rather than a boyfriend :) sorry.

10. good friends make you comfortable when you're with them.

11. best friends are the people who understand you

12. should i kick a hypocrite? or forgive?

13. dear a friend of mine, "don't judge a book by its cover". think about it.

14. hey, better to shut up rather than boasting.

15. oh my God, we are in the end of high school.

16. university, here i come!

17. i want to work as an ambassador of united nations :D

18. someday, i will stand up for poverty.

19. someday, i will give them a better life.

20. i can not wait for holiday :) bali...here we come!

21. oh my, i am struggling to make a presentation alone :( aaargh!!

22. God, please bless me for the presentation and my bio test for next friday

23. I WANT TO SEE FIREFLIES, where are you??

24. i'll try to search for fireflies at bali on may :)

25. the end. goodbye march and hello april :D

dear XII friends,

2010-03-16T06:38:00.001-07:00

do your best and let God do the rest.

we are together in this. study. do the preparation. do the try outs. we feel the depression and the pressure, together. so, i believe that we will pass this (again) together. no matter how hard it is, i believe that His hands will help us in exams. i believe that we will graduate together :) bunch of good luck to you and you and you :) and see you at graduation day.

you will when you believe

8 moments that i miss now

2010-03-06T21:43:00.000-08:00

1. i miss to laugh with felia. we fight. we cry. we laugh. we sing.

remember this photo? this is after the concert. still wearing make up. thanks for helping me with the make up. idk how to use it.lol. you should be a make up artist someday, girl!

2. i miss ausie trip. miss my buddy there. miss the downtown. and all.

margareth river, i heart you <3

3. i miss when we watched jason mraz at jjf last year.

4. i miss the time when we used to have music class at manggarai almost everyday.

5. i miss when we had a concert at erasmus last year ;)

6. i miss when we used to prepare for "twilight" drama. i miss our performance art class

the casts. bella's friends and the cullen :p

7. i miss LG CLASS - the best music class i've ever had :)

8. i miss my musketeers and old fellas

remember this moment? i won't forget you guys :) we laugh. partner in crime. let's break the rules and make a change.

We do not remember days; we remember moments

- Cesare Pavese, The Burning Brand -

For some life lasts a short while, but the memories it holds last forever

-Laura Swenson-

2010-03-03T05:09:00.000-08:00

"Don't allow your wounds to turn you into a person you are not"

- Paulo Coelho -

i never realize about this before :) thanks.

maturity

2010-02-21T07:19:00.000-08:00

how could you tell yourself that you are mature enough?

age won't be a good answer.

for me, maturity is.....

when you try to comprehend which one is good or bad,

when you have courage to walk on your path,

when you have courage to accept challenges,

when you are ready to make a change,

when you are not afraid of failure,

when you start to learn how to gamble in life,

when you learn how to make decisions,

when you start to take a risk,

and finally, when you have courage to make your own journey.

"How do we know that Moses was grown up? Because he went out unto his brethren, and was ready to bear the burdens and share the plight of his people. Maturity is sensitivity to human suffering."

-Julius Gordon-

"To exist is to change, to change is to mature, to mature is to go on creating oneself endlessly"

-Henry Bergson-

"Maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had, and what you've learned from them, and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated"

-unknown-

2010-02-14T05:04:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY, PEOPLE !

i got this words from the movie : valentine's day

"hey, it's valentine's day. you don't think. just do!"

1st post in february

2010-02-03T03:37:00.000-08:00

never hesitate your own feelings. your heart.
sadly, i've ignored it. i do regret it now.
when it says "don't" or "bad" i tend to ignore it.
when it says "do" or "good" i'll go for it.
so human.

"butterfly fly away"

2010-01-29T19:45:00.000-08:00

hello people! i don't have anything to do today, therefore, i just play with my lovely laptop and listening to some songs. i found a good one. i like this song. it feels warm when i listen to this song. it brings my mind back to my childhood which is full of my parents' love. actually, this song tells about a single parent, but there are some parts of the lyrics which also describe about what every parents do to their children. here is the song : butterfly fly away by miley cyrus. check out for the words.

"You tucked me in, turned out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back"

yes, my mom and dad are always there for me. i believe that your parents do the same things to you. all parents.

"And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scared things wouldn't turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
Flap your wings now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true"

i am so lucky to have them. they always support me on every desicions that i made. even though it is the wrong one, they never blame me, they just tell me to take the risk and never regret it coz we learn from our mistakes. they give me freedom to choose which path to take. i remember when my mom said "it is all your desicion, as a parent, all that i can do is pray for you. i may give you a shelter, a house for your body, but not for your mind and soul." means she won't mix her thoughts with mine. it is the same as the words - butterfly fly away. free to think, free to dream as high as i could, and free to decide. what a wise mom! thank you God for giving me the best mom i've ever had :)

sick

2010-01-24T02:43:00.000-08:00

again. for the third times in my life, it comes.
painful. hard for me to breathe.
could you postpone it for a moment?

oh God! it is really disturbing me :(

speechless

2010-01-16T04:10:00.000-08:00

oke..seminggu ini cukup stres buat gw.. latihan piano aja nggak sempet. berasa kayak robot yang disetel tiap pagi then dicharge lagi untuk besok pagi. so, sampai maret jadwal gw bener2 bakal bosan sangat dan capek sangat! bangun pagi, ke sekolah. pulang jam 3.30 then pergi makan sama temen, belajar bersama di tempat les untuk persiapan uan sampai malam. GW HARUS BERTAHAN!! gw harus bisa! gw harus lulus! gw mau lulus uan dengan nilai yang memuaskan! YAY!

next, gw nggak mau membahas tentang jadwal gw yang seperti nerd...let's talk about someone :) gw sedang terkagum-kagum waktu denger berita dari guru piano gw. jadi ada pemenang suatu piano competition yang sangat bergengsi di amrik. biasanya yang menang selalu bule, orang asia blm pernah menang, tapi tahun 2009 kemarin muncul pemenang dari asia...guess what..dia buta. he is totally blind since he was born. namanya Nobuyuki Tsujii. bener2 nggak sanggup berkata2 gw waktu liat dia main. dengan keterbatasannya dia mampu main classical piece yang susahnya amit2 menjelimet such as chopin, liszt and rachmaninoff. gokil banget! dia bisa main perfect...notnya kena semua walaupun dia nggak liat. oh my GOD!! speechless gw liat dia main...God works through him. salut banget gw sama dia. mending liat videonya aja deh langsung :) semoga terinspirasi.

so, setelah video ini gw sempet merasa that i am blind about piano AT ALL! gila...bener2 keajaiban dia bisa main lagu2 seperti ini. salut banget! kalo dia dateng ke indonesia untuk resital gw harus nonton!

25 random thoughts - january

2010-01-10T02:01:00.000-08:00

last november my friend asked me to do this, i did it. i think it is a good idea to do it again for january :)

1. thank you GOD for everything

2. i am stress

3. why should we do something that we don't like?

4. new year means no looking back

5. i shouldn't make the same mistakes like last year

6. it is better to look ahead rather than look back at the past

7. it feels good to have friends on my side

8. i need to be alone

9. yes, i am hesitating a kindness

10. when?

11. do you believe on love at first sight?

12. OMG! i haven't watched sherlock holmes

13. i need to watch "mulan" and "the princess and the frog"

14. i need to study harder

15. i have to set my mind to final exam

16. i need to eat more vegies and fruits

17. why do people come and go?

18. there is a beginning and soon, there will be an end

19. yes, i need to avoid this feeling

20. so, logic or feeling?

21. i am bored

22. i need to change this blog skin, but i don't know how

23. thanks to Nadia who wants to help me with this thingy

24. should i cry or laugh in this situation?

25. the end..

so, what are your 25 random thoughts for january?

2010-01-10T01:15:00.000-08:00

"gravity is not responsible for people falling in love"

-Albert Enstein-

then, my question is :

who is responsible for people falling in love?

wrestling match

2010-01-04T19:07:00.000-08:00

tuesday with morie. that is a book which once i read on the trip to canada. i know the title of the book seems old-fashioned and unattractive, but once you read it, you will find great lessons in it. i keep remember some parts of it. one of the parts that i like the most is this one :

"have i told you about the tension of opposites? life is a series of pulls back and forth. you want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. you take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted. a tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. and most of us live somewhere in the middle. yes, you could describe life is like a wrestling match."

"which side wins?"

"love wins. love always wins."

i never get bored to read on that part. i do agree with him that we live under tensions, we live in a stressful world, we live in a crazy one but we should always live our life with love. then, you'll win the match.

goodbye 2009

2010-01-02T03:50:00.001-08:00

HELLO 2010 !

PS : three musketeers, you guys should wake me up from this bad dream. i'm sick of it. now! lol.

flashback 2009

2009-12-28T22:52:00.000-08:00

wow..nggak terasa sebentar lagi 2010. cukup cepat yaa waktu berjalan. cukup banyak juga kejadian dan pengalaman yang berlalu, mulai dari yang menyenangkan sampai yang pahit. well, sekedar flashback what i've done and what happened on 2009.

januari
awal tahun yang cukup membuat gw excited tapi cukup shocking karena salah satu guru favorit gw, guru yang menurut gw paling gokil di sekolah who is Mr. Simon pindah dari loren. bulan ini juga konser terakhir kita bareng. we sang christmas songs together.

februari
pengalaman baru which is homestay @ margareth river di aussie :) i have new family there. valente's family. and now i miss them a lot. they've been so nice to me. guess what, i cried when i had to go back to jakarta :( oh..dan ini pertama kali gw homestay :)

maret
ini bulan paling nggak nahan. hard work! ujian piano berupa resital dan cukup membuat gw nervous since this was the first time.

april
dua kejadian yang baik dan buruk terjadi. good news, gw lulus dari ypm and i got the 3rd place. bagi gw, kerja keras selama ini terbayar dan ga sia2. seneeng banget. tapi disisi lain gw harus kehilangan ie po gw (tantenya nyokap). honestly, sedih banget karena gw inget dulu dia yang ngajarin gw baca tulis berhitung. dia seorang guru..sayang banget sama anak2. di bulan ini gw bener2 merasakan farewell.

mei
buat gw ini bulan tenang setelah kehilangan ie po gw. di bulan ini gw jg sibuk mencari tau minat dan bakat gw, memikirkan jadi apa dan mau ambil apa gw kelak..gw menyibukkan diri dengan belajar dan persiapan konser piano.

juni
well, gw naik kelas..and dapet penghargaan dari sekolah. suatu hal yang gw nggak sangka2 dan gw bersyukur banget gw dapet penghargaan itu :) bahagia rasanya. tapi disisi lain..lagi2 gw harus berpisah. kali ini sama sahabat gw, Felia Tunggal. sediih banget. honestly, gw paling benci perpisahan :( but, well itu juga demi kebaikan dia untuk masa depan dia..so i have to accept it.

juli
konser piano terakhir di erasmus bareng teman2 ypm karena gw udah lulus jadi ga bisa konser bareng lagi sama mereka :( seru banget rasanya kalo diingat..nunggu di backstage dengan jantung yang hampir mau copot sambil menahan ketawa liat aksi konyol orang2 yang lagi nervous. gw juga seneeng karena beberapa teman2 sekolah yang masih di jakarta juga ikut nonton. aw love it :)

agustus
again..farewell. ypm graduation...it means i can't see my music friends everyday like i used to meet them @manggarai. di bulan ini gw ngerasa ada yang hilang..ada kegiatan yang hilang..biasanya gw ke manggarai untuk ikut kelas2 musik bareng temen2 ypm yang gokil tapi sekarang nggak. well, untungnya kita masih tetep keep in touch :)

september
liburan ke canada benar2 recharge diri gw. i am totally in love with canada. i love the culture, the view, the food :) especially maple syroup..slurp.. bagi gw september the best holiday i've ever had.

oktober
di bulan ini ada 2 event yang cukup besar dan membuat gw senang to the max..hihi. first, ulang tahun ke 17 gw. second, LAURENSIA CUP :) bagi gw, bday gw menyenangkan..pool party was FUN and thanks to you who come to my party..kebersamaan yang ada di party cukup membuat gw senang. yiipii.. next, laurensia cup cukup memakan waktu gw untuk keluar kelas karena gw koordinator closing. disamping itu gw juga punya tanggung jawab untuk lomba inays. crazy, huh? memegang dua hal yang sama pentingnya cukup membuat gw depresi. untungnya gw bisa jaga kesehatan di bulan ini..soalnya bener2 bulan ini bagi gw puncak dari seluruh bulan2 di 2009. overall, closing sukses..and guess what..i met a great drummer :) so..i'm totally happy. yap, i always love october.

november
STRES! itu kata yang bisa menggambarkan november. karena beberapa hal gw sempet keluar masuk kelas di saat jam pelajaran di bulan oktober..so, gw harus mengejar materi. plus, masalah universitas dan jurusan agak membuat gw pusing. bulan ini bener2 hard work! gw bahkan hampir ga inget kejadian apa yang berkesan di november..haha. guess, i am completely busy with school.

desember
christmas time! holiday! well, bagi gw desember itu bulan berkumpul. kumpul sama keluarga, teman lama dan teman2 luar sekolah :) yang membuat gw excited di bulan ini adalah MY BFF IS HERE. yap, felia pulang..yipiii... so, gw menghabiskan beberapa waktu sama dia and i learn lots of new things from her. she is so wise now :)

setelah gw flashback tahun 2009, ternyata banyak hal yang nggak terduga dan banyak pelajaran yang gw ambil dari pengalaman2 itu. tahun ini bener2 tahun yang cukup berat sekaligus cukup menyenangkan bagi gw. banyak perpisahan yang gw alami, banyak pertemuan juga dengan orang2 baru. honestly, gw paling menghindari yang namanya perpisahan. tapi karena di tahun ini gw cukup banyak mengalami perpisahan dan nggak bisa dihindari, so i learn from them. i hope next year will be a glorious one. i hope next year will be better. i hope i will be more mature on 2010 :)

hmm..menurut gw dua kalimat yang cocok untuk tahun ini..which are :

"smile even though it hurts you, smile even though you are tired, through smile you can release the bitterness of life"

"stop whinning! you should always be grateful on what you have now"

7 love songs

2009-12-28T07:43:00.000-08:00

i post this for a friend. i post this for someone who gives me new perspective about love. don't misunderstand..that i post this for a special guy or you may think that i'm in love. no! it is not for a boy..so stop make an assumption :)

1. if - bread
2. let's just fall in love again - jason castro
3. mayday, i'm in love - d'cinnamons
4. when you love someone - endah and rhesa
5. ku cinta kau lebih dari kemarin - abdul and the coffee theory
6. two is better than one - boys like girls ft taylor swift
7. you and i both - jason mraz

why do i stop at 7? i don't know why, i guess because 7 is a magic number for me..and i just want to stop at 7. besides, i think it's enough because i'm sleepy right now.lol.

*you will never regret anything that has happened to you (even the bad one) if you are really in love with him*

2009-12-24T18:23:00.001-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2009
HAVE A BLESSED ONE :)

with love, windi :)

great memories before christmas

2009-12-23T19:28:00.000-08:00

yesterday was unpredictable. i thought i would stay at home all the day and did something booorriiing, but guess what? my BFF and other friends came to my house on the evening and forced me to go to kemang with them. what a day! i haven't took a shower yet when they called me. geeez! how crazy they are! i didn't predict that Felia Tunggal, my BFF would knock the door and would force me to put on clothes in a minute. i miss her soooo much and now she is home :) then, we went to kemang with no clues at all. i mean, we don't even know the route to there. so, i phoned my mom as my gps :) i just remember some of the route..but thanks to mom, she is the one who helped us with the route :)

on the way, there was a shocking moment. OH MY GOD! there was a bus in front of our car which almost hit us. once again, it was right in front of us and if Alain didn't turn the car to the left, i don't know where i am right now and i don't know whether i still have a chance to celebrate christmas or not. OH NOO! that was thrilling.. i couldn't even shout for that moment because i was just too panick.lol. thanks God we are all alive and nothing's happened to us :)

i thought my day before christmas would be sooo booooriiiing. i don't know why, lately i feel so empty since i don't have anything to do. however, happiness comes to me when my friends came up. happiness comes to me when i saw my BFF is right in front me. happiness does come to me when we were hugging in front of my room. it feels like their presence is sooo right. when i need her, she is there to remove my sadness. when they come to my house, i feel much better. i do love her :) oh one thing, i do miss her voice too. i do miss the moment when we sang together :(

thank you friends for the wonderful memories. thank you guys for the happiness you have shared. thank you felia for brighten up my day. thank you God for the love you have given to me through my friends, my BFF. i love you all i love you all. i will never forget that moment :D

*counting on christmas eve, have a great one*

"He Will Find You!"

2009-12-22T03:37:00.000-08:00

gw dapet email yang bagus banget dari nyokap dan email itu based on true story. bagi gw, cerita dalam email itu berarti banget :) cerita ini ditulis oleh salah seorang profesor Loyola University di Chicago. ada seorang mahasiswa theology di amrik namanya Tommy. dia nggak percaya kalau Tuhan itu ada. ini email yang gw dapat, semoga memberi inspirasi :)

Some twelve years ago, I stood watching my university students file into the classroom for our first session in the Theology of Faith. That was the day I first saw Tommy. My eyes and my mind both blinked. He was combing his long flaxen hair, which hung six inches below his shoulders. It was the first time I had ever seen a boy with hair that long. I guess it was just coming into fashion then. I know in my mind that it isn't what's on your head but what's in it that counts; but on that day I was unprepared and my emotions flipped. I immediately filed Tommy under "S" for strange, very strange.

Tommy turned out to be the "atheist in residence" in my Theology of Faith course. He constantly objected to, smirked at, or whined about the possibility of an unconditionally loving Father/God. We lived with each other in relative peace for one semester, although I admit he was for me at times a serious pain in the back pew.

When he came up at the end of the course to turn in his final exam, he asked in a cynical tone, "Do you think I'll ever find God?" I decided instantly on a little shock therapy. "No!" I said very emphatically.

"Why not?" he responded, "I thought that was the product you were pushing."

I let him get five steps from the classroom door and then called out, "Tommy! I don't think you'll ever find Him, but I am absolutely certain that He will find you!" He shrugged a little and left my class and my life. I felt slightly disappointed at the thought that he had missed my clever line ---"He will find you!" At least I thought it was clever.

Later I heard that Tommy had graduated and I was duly grateful. Then a sad report came. I heard that Tommy had terminal cancer. Before I could search him out, he came to see me. When he walked into my office, his body was very badly wasted and the long hair had all fallen out as a result of chemotherapy. But his eyes were bright and his voice was firm, for the first time, I believe. "Tommy, I've thought about you so often; I hear you are sick," I blurted out.

"Oh, yes, very sick. I have cancer in both lungs. It's a matter of weeks."

"Can you talk about it, Tom?" I asked.

"Sure, what would you like to know?" he replied.

"What's it like to be only twenty-four and dying?"

"Well, it could be worse."

"Like what?"

"Well, like being fifty and having no values or ideals; like being fifty and thinking that booze, seducing women, and making money are the real biggies in life."

I began to look through my mental file cabinet under 'S' where I had filed Tommy as strange. (It seems as though everybody I try to reject by classification, God sends back into my life to educate me.)

"But what I really came to see you about," Tom said, "is something you said to me on the last day of class." (He remembered!) He continued, "I asked you if you thought I would ever find God and you said, 'No!' which surprised me. Then you said, 'But He will find you.' I thought about that a lot, even though my search for God was hardly intense at that time. (My clever line. He thought about that a lot!) "But when the doctors removed a lump from my groin and told me that it was malignant, that's when I got serious about locating God. And when the malignancy spread into my vital organs, I really began banging bloody fists against the bronze doors of heaven. But God did not come out.. In fact, nothing happened. Did you ever try anything for a long time with great effort and with no success? You get psychologically glutted, fed up with trying. And then you quit."

"Well, one day I woke up, and instead of throwing a few more futile appeals over that high brick wall to a God who may be or may not be there, I just quit. I decided that I didn't really care about God, about an afterlife, or anything like that. I decided to spend what time I had left doing something more profitable. I thought about you and your class and I remembered something else you had said: 'The essential sadness is to go through life without loving. But it would be almost equally sad to go through life and leave this world without ever telling those you loved that you had loved them."

"So, I began with the hardest one, my Dad. He was reading the newspaper when I approached him.

"Dad."

"Yes, what?" he asked without lowering the newspaper.

"Dad, I would like to talk with you."

"Well, talk."

"I mean. It's really important".

The newspaper came down three slow inches. "What is it?"

"Dad, I love you. I just wanted you to know that."

Tom smiled at me and said it with obvious satisfaction, as though he felt a warm and secret joy flowing inside of him. "The newspaper fluttered to the floor. Then my father did two things I could never remember him ever doing before. He cried and he hugged me. We talked all night, even though he had to go to work the next morning. It felt so good to be close to my father, to see his tears, to feel his hug, to hear him say that he loved me".

"It was easier with my mother and little brother. They cried with me, too, and we hugged each other, and started saying real nice things to each other. We shared the things we had been keeping secret for so many years. I was only sorry about one thing --- that I had waited so long. Here I was, just beginning to open up to all the people I had actually been close to. Then, one day I turned around and God was there. He didn't come to me when I pleaded with Him. I guess I was like an animal trainer holding out a hoop, 'C'mon, jump through. C'mon, I'll give you three days, three weeks.'

"Apparently God does things in His own way and at His own hour. But the important thing is that He was there. He found me! You were right! He found me even after I stopped looking for Him."

"Tommy," I practically gasped, "I think you are saying something very important and much more universal than you realize. To me, at least, you are saying that the surest way to find God is not to make Him a private possession, a problem solver, or an instant consolation in time of need, but rather by opening to love. You know, the Apostle John said that. He said: 'God is love, and anyone who lives in love is living with God and God is living in Him.' Tom, could I ask you a favor? You know, when I had you in class you were a real pain. But (laughingly) you can make it all up to me now. Would you come into my present Theology of Faith course and tell them what you have just told me? If I told them the same thing it wouldn't be half as effective as if you were to tell it."

"Ooh. I was ready for you, but I don't know if I'm ready for your class."

"Tom, think about it. If and when you are ready, give me a call."

In a few days Tom called, said he was ready for the class, that he wanted to do that for God and for me. So we scheduled a date.

However, he never made it. He had another appointment, far more important than the one with me and my class. Of course, his life was not really ended by his death, only changed. He made the great step from faith into vision. He found a life far more beautiful than the eye of man has ever seen or the ear of man has ever heard or the mind of man has ever imagined.

Before he died, we talked one last time. "I'm not going to make it to your class," he said.

"I know, Tom."

"Will you tell them for me? Will you tell the whole world for me?"

"I will, Tom. I'll tell them. I'll do my best"

So, to all of you who have been kind enough to read this simple story about God's love, thank you for listening. And to you, Tommy, somewhere in the sunlit, verdant hills of heaven --- I told them, Tommy, as best I could.

*GOD IS LOVE*

weeks before christmas

2009-12-20T17:09:00.000-08:00

this month, december is full of surprises and new experiences. i love this month since there will be christmas on 25. but the dates before 25 somehow makes me feel happy, stress, sad and even stupid. the first week and the second week of december is full of depression since i got block test to do. i worked hard for that weeks, however don't know the score yet. third week of december is happy and sad. first till third day of the week i was very very happy, but on the last day of the week it was sad. some experiences make me happy such as the cooking competition at school, go green, and what else i guess new friend (i thought). and one thing that makes me happy because we were all heading to holiday! the bad part was i knew that there is a person who is not kind enough. there is a person who dislike me for no reasons. oh, intermission..the number of the week i mean third week ( 3 ) is my fave number. but i guess not the experiences.

on the third week i learn a lot that i should've follow my heart. i should've known before. i should've think clearly before i did a mistake. somehow i feel stupid on the last day of the week. i learn that world may full of fake people but i have to get out of the situation. i don't want to be one of those. if you don't like the culture, you should create another one..get out from it. if you don't like the culture, don't buy it.

for those who feels i blame 'em, in this post i am sorry, i don't mean it. just want to share some thoughts based on this week experience. for those who feels "I AM THE FAKE ONE". i am happy for you that you realize it and i suggest you to leave it soon.

anyway, thanks for the memories on the weeks before christmas, friends :)

*HAPPY HOLIDAY*

a quote

2009-12-17T04:54:00.000-08:00

a friend of mine tell me to open a link. it is a link with full of wise words. the first time i read the first quote, i was touched by the quote. the second time i read it, the more i understand it. the third time i read it, i strongly agree. it feels absolutely right.

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.
--Sam Keen, from To Love and Be Loved--

you can find it more on : www.boardofwisdom.com

junglebook

2009-12-16T01:36:00.000-08:00

gw dan teman2 hari ini ke muara angke untuk bersih2 di rawa2nya. well, bisa dibilang itu tempat kotoor sangat yaa dan banyak monyetnya. gw dan beberapa temen jalan dari depan tempat reservasi sampai ujung rawa-rawa melalui jembatan kayu. mulai di tengah2 jalannya semakin banyak daun2 dan ranting2 jadi harus agak menunduk dan hati-hati. awalnya ada 1 monyet di depan. kita pikir, nggak apa2 lah baru 1. begitu kita mendekat eh dateng lagi 1. jadi ada 2. OH MY GOD! gimana ini?? ternyata banyaak banget monyetnya. untungnya ada guru gw yang jagain, menurut dia sih kalo kita lewat aja tanpa berhenti atau menatap itu monyet, mereka nggak akan ganggu. yaudh, kita coba lewat. perjalanan ke ujung rawa2 itu bener2 ditemani monyet di kanan kiri. jadi berasa di monkeyland :) dodolnya lagi, salah satu temen gw sempet2nya bercanda konyol. namanya Hideo.

Hideo : wah jangan2 disini juga ada warnet untuk monyet.
Kevin G : hahahahaha
Hideo : iya monyet disini pada main junglebook pengganti facebook.
kita : HAHAHAHAHA
Hideo : iya beneran, kemaren gw udah add tuh junglebook.

astaga! dapet inspirasi darimana yaa si hideo facebook untuk monyet namanya junglebook. sungguh kreatifnya itu anak. kalo inget itu, gw pengen ketawa rasanya.

*HAPPY WEDNESDAY*

flowers :)

2009-12-15T02:09:00.000-08:00

karena lagi nggak ada kerjaan, gw baru aja iseng melihat foto2 di laptop. haha ternyata sebuah foto memang benar2 bisa membuat kita teringat kembali ke masa itu. dan sebuah foto memang benar bisa mendeskripsikan kenangan saat itu. well, kebanyakan foto2 yang gw lihat adalah foto2 masa SMP gw dengan teman2 yang gokil parah. i miss youuu guys, a lot XD kalian benar2 mengajarkan gw arti persahabatan :) i wish i could meet you this december.

oke, disamping foto2 gw dan teman SMP. gw menemukan beberapa foto bunga. menurut gw, bunga memiliki arti tersendiri, tiap jenis dan tiap warna punya arti yang berbeda. bagi gw, bunga bisa dibilang simbol kasih sayang. dan menurut gw, gambar bunga2 dibawah ini INDAH BANGET! so, here they are :

pink is my fave, so i think they are beautiful :)

when i look at this picture, i really want to touch it :)

my fave and the most beautiful one i've ever known.

foto2 bunga itu gw ambil waktu gw liburan di canada. rasanya pengen lagi datang kesana lihat keindahan bunganya :)

I'd rather have roses on my table than diamonds on my neck.
-Emma Goldman-

a mess!

2009-12-13T02:49:00.000-08:00

1. why do some people like to lie about the truth?
2. why do some people like to buy law?
3. why are they addicted to money?
4. why do they take others money?
5. don't they think about others?
6. do they think that money can buy happiness? (their own happiness)
7. don't they think that they do the wrong one?
8. don't they think that lots of people are crying and begging for justice?

i think lots of people have lost their humanity. i think lots of people should think more about love. what a mess! a HUGE mess :(

a new dream

2009-12-11T02:29:00.000-08:00

haiihooo....setelah post terakhir gw membicarakan kegagalan. now, i start to talk about A NEW DREAM :) kalo kemarin ada yang tanya "lo mau jadi apa win ntr?" or "cita-cita lo ngpn?" gw biasanya akan menjawab dengan "aduuhhh nggak tauu nih...masih bingung!!" sekarang, kalo ada yang tanya "jadi, sekarang cita-cita lo apa?" gw udah tau jawabannya :) well, gw nggak akan post disini ttg apa impian gw, bagi gw impian ini adalah misi rahasia, cuma beberapa orang yg tau. yaa walaupun ada sih temen yang bilang gw nggak realistis atau berfikir mimpi gw aneeh. tapi itu gw. itu impian gw. bukankah impian itu emang belum terwujud dan belum realistis kalau kita belum berusaha untuk bergerak dan berusaha untuk membuat impian itu jadi realistis? bukankah mimpi yang membuat manusia menjadi hidup? ilmuwan2 dulu juga bermimpi dan mereka berusaha alhasil hidup kita semakin canggih karena impian2 mereka dulu. well, even though people look at them as a freak, they keep trying to make it real. even though people underestimate them at first, they give us proof that they are able to make it real. even though people think that their dreams are impossible, they are able to make it possible.

*have a nice day! keep dreaming, keep trying, keep believing and keep praying*

a failure

2009-12-05T07:54:00.001-08:00

belakangan, gw sempet nggak punya semangat buat daftar ke beberapa uni di luar karena beberapa alasan. well, lebih tepatnya karena beberapa situasi yang membuat gw berfikir "mungkin Tuhan nggak mengijinkan gw kuliah di luar." setelah itu, gw mulai berfikir untuk kuliah di indo aja cari2 uni disini. telaat banget nggak sih? orang2 udh pada sibuk daftar, udh tau info ttg atma, ui, unpar dan lain2 sedangkan gw cari info ttg uni di indo aja nggak. dari awal tahun gw cm cari info ttg uni di luar. crap! gw bingung jg, gimana nasib gw kalo gw nggak keterima dimana2. masa gw nggak kuliah? gara2 suatu kejadian yang aneh, yang menyebabkan gw berfirkir gw nggak diijinkan kuliah di luar, gw jadi buntu untuk buat essay ke beberapa uni. gw jadi nggak ada ide. well, bisa dibilang gw agak putus asa. (hahaha)

tapi, setelah ada lagi satu kejadian yang baik. gw jadi merasa kembali yakin, kalo kejadian sebelumnya cuma ujian buat gw dari Tuhan. gw sadar, untuk mencapai sesuatu nggak selalu mulus pasti ada hal yang menyakitkan. memang, dari dulu gw jaraaang banget mengalami suatu kegagalan. kalaupun gagal itu cuma suatu hal yang kecil2 banget, bukan kegagalan yang besar kayak kejadian kemarin. jadi, waktu gagal kemarin, jujur itu jadi bahan pikiran gw kemana2. well, i've learned new lessons in this experience. kegagalan itu harus dihadapi dengan suatu semangat baru bukan dengan kepasrahan atau keputus asa-an. harusnya, walaupun gagal gw nggak boleh berhenti berharap, keep hoping, keep trying and keep praying. thats the best things that we, as a human are able to do to fix a failure. pengalaman ini ngajarin gw tentang kegagalan. pengalaman kemarin adalah keggagalan besar pertama yang gw rasakan. sisi baiknya, thanks God kegagalan itu bisa gw rasakan, setidaknya gw punya pengalaman tentang kegagalan :) well, we should be grateful on every situation even it is a failure.

*never ever ever ever ever GIVE UP*

nice quotes

2009-11-29T05:11:00.000-08:00

recently, i read "chicken soup for the teenage soul". i suggest you to read this book since it provides you tons of lessons in life. here are some quotes that i take from the book. hopefully, it touches your heart :)

-If you judge people, you have no time to love them-
Mother Teresa

- A friend is a person who let you change, gives you room, gives you freedom to screw up, to grow and learn your own lessons in your own way and in your own time-
A.J. Langer

- If God can work through me, he can work through anyone -
St. Francis of Assisi

- The secret of happiness : if you would be loved, love and be lovable -
Benjamin Franklin

- You were born with wings. Why prefer to crawl through life? -
Rumi

- Knowledge is love and light and vision -
Helen Keller

- Whatever you are doing, love yourself for doing it.
Whatever you are feeling, love yourself for feeling it -
Thadeus Golas

- The task ahead of us is never as great as the power behind us -
Anonymous

i love those quotes. it changes some of my perspectives. it creates new perspectives. of course, the good one :)

2009-11-07T03:41:00.000-08:00

since one of my friends tell me to do 25 randoms thought, i try to write it for november edition.

1. i love EUPHORIA
2. i love MUSIC
3. thank you GOD to give me a chance to live
4. why can't i have a break?
5. OMG! what should i do for university thingy?
6. OMG! it is almost december
7. how about my math test?
8. i don't understand what this feeling is.
9. why doesn't he understand?
10. OMG! i have to take TOEFL.
11. what if i can't reach a good score for TOEFL?
12. should i rethink about a decision to Canada?
13. idk for what reason, i hate crowds nowadays.
14. i need to refresh my mind
15. i have to share more times with my bestfriends
16. i have to study harder
17. OMG! i can't imagine about my future
18. am i going to struggle college life?
19. am i going to be accepted on my dream university?
20. should i give him a chance?
21. should i tell him that he is nice to me?
22. why do the teachers give us soooo much works to do?
23. i have to practice more on piano recently.
24. i am sorry God for too much whining in my life
25. i should be more grateful and less whining :D

so, what about your 25 random thoughts?

EUPHORIA 2009

2009-10-31T21:48:00.000-07:00

CLOSING EUPHORIA 2009 WAS AWESOME!

sedikit kilas balik sebelum hari H. hari-hari menjelang closing bikin gw stres hampir mau pingsan. closing loren cup tanggal 31 itu bener2 a BIG DAY for me. soalnya, di hari itu gw juga harus pergi ke bandung untuk lomba INAYS (well for you who don't know what's that, it is a science stuff). gw sempet nangis, kesel, bertanya2 kenapa gini kenapa gitu. gw ngerasa nggak sanggup menjalankan dua hal yang ada di beda kota dan sama-sama pentingnya. intinya gw DESPERATE! gw capeeek paraah, pusing, stres belom lagi demam tiba2 nyerang dan gw harus melawan semua itu. entah gimana caranya gw harus struggle.

untung banget, ada teman2 dan guru2 yang kasih support, hugs and love. itu yang membuat gw kuat. gw sempet mikir, apa gw drop aja salah satu. tapi berat untuk drop salah satu dari itu. closing euphoria itu tanggung jawab gw. tanggung jawab terbesar karena gw koordinator. kalo itu gagal, gw juga nggak bisa maafin diri gw. plus, gw juga udah berprinsip soal acara musik atau konser or yaa sejenisnya, itu harus dijalankan dengan dedikasi bukan cuma tugas semata aja. kenapa gw nggak drop inays? itu juga penting untuk masa depan gw, bakal berguna untuk apply univ dimanapun. alhasil, gw nggak drop salah satu dari itu dan tetep fight untuk menjalankan dua2nya. well, walaupun salah satunya (INAYS) nggak dapet juara apa2, at least CLOSING LAURENSIA CUP 2009 BERHASIL. thats the point, closingnya lancar, seru dan meninggalkan memori indah di hati teman2. gw turut senang kalo teman2 dan guru2 senang :)

dari pengalaman ini gw belajar : kerja keras, support, kebaikan dan keyakinan adalah elemen2 yang penting untuk mencapai sesuatu.

i hope they are happy and enjoy the music. i hope EUPHORIA remains in your heart, forever.

special thanks :
THANK YOU GOD FOR YOUR BLESS. THANK YOU FOR ALL CREW OF EUPHORIA 2009. THANK YOU PERFORMERS FOR THE MUSIC AND THE DANCE. THANK YOU FOR THE AUDIENCES. THANK YOU ABDUL AND THE COFFEE THEORY. GOD BLESS YOU ALL <3
lots of love, windi :)

pictures from Canada

2009-10-09T05:23:00.000-07:00

hellooo world..i'm back with canada with lots of cool photos and funny experiences :) to be honest, I LOVE CANADA soo damn much! i love the city, the environment and the food! i had so much fun in Canada and of course i won't think twice to visit Canada next year (actually, i am planning to study there, so i guess the word visit does not really suit) here are some pictures fresh from Canada.flowers in Butchard Garden

this is the tasty hot chocolate i take it every breakfast :)
scenery - rockies

@ Icefield

OMG! it takes so long to upload all good pics. actually, there are still lots and lots of good pics. guess i'll upload it for the next post!

2009-09-18T08:00:00.000-07:00

off to canada 'til 27th of september.
i'll be back with lots of pics and stories

see you! enjoy your holiday XD

2009-09-17T02:28:00.001-07:00

finally!! it's holiday!! 1 week to refresh my mind, 1 week to enjoy canada with my family. wednesday was the last day of school and we did the math test on that day. about the math test, it was HORRIBLE. i couldn't finish all the questions! but, who cares?? i don't want that test ruins my holiday. i don't want to think about it along this holiday. just think about it later, after holiday.lol.

HAPPY HOLIDAY !! XD

2009-09-12T07:37:00.000-07:00

TODAY, TOEFL TEST WAS DISASTER!!

SORRY TO SAY, BUT I DON'T LIKE (HATE) THE ONE WHO IN CHARGE IN THAT PLACE (the devil-woman)

she pissed me off!!

~!@#$#@!$#@%$#!#!@~@!~$#@!%$#!

puisi WS Rendra

2009-08-13T06:14:00.000-07:00

oke, ini dia beberapa puisi WS Rendra yang gw kutip dari berbagai sumber dan menjadi beberapa puisi favorit gw :) kedua puisi ini sangaat mengeena di hati gw. terutama puisi yang kedua. buat teman2 yang nggak terlalu tau puisinya Rendra, semoga post ini bisa membuat kalian jatuh cinta sama puisinya.hehe :)

Megatruh

O, akal sehat jaman ini!
Bagaimana mesti kusebut kamu?
Kalau lelaki kenapa seperti kue lapis?
Kalau perempuan kenapa tidak keibuan?
Dan kalau banci kenapa tidak punya keuletan?

Aku menahan air mata
punggungku dingin
tetapi aku mesti melawan
kerna aku menolak bersekutu dengan kamu.

Kenapa anarki jalanan mesti ditindas dengan anarki kekuasaan?
Apakah hukum
tinggal menjadi syair lagu disco?
Tanpa panca indera untuk fakta
tanpa kesadaran untuk jiwa
tanpa jendela untuk cinta kasih.
Sayur mayurlah kamu.

Dibius pupuk dan insektisida
kamu hanya berminat menggemukkan badan.
Tidak mampu bergerak menghayati cakrawala.
Terkesima. Terbengong.
Terhiba-hiba.
Berakhir menjadi hidangan para raksasa.

O, akal sehat jaman ini!
Kerna menolak menjadi edan
aku melawan kamu.
(WS Rendra)

Makna sebuah titipan

Sering kali aku berkata, ketika orang memuji milikku,
bahwa sesungguhnya ini hanya titipan,
bahwa mobilku hanya titipan Nya,
bahwa rumahku hanya titipan Nya,
bahwa hartaku hanya titipan Nya,
bahwa putraku hanya titipan Nya,
tetapi, mengapa aku tak pernah bertanya, mengapa Dia
menitipkan padaku?
Untuk apa Dia menitipkan ini pada ku?
Dan kalau bukan milikku, apa yang harus kulakukan
untuk milik Nya ini?
Adakah aku memiliki hak atas sesuatu yang bukan
milikku?
Mengapa hatiku justru terasa berat, ketika titipan itu
diminta kembali oleh-Nya ?
Ketika diminta kembali, kusebut itu sebagai musibah
kusebut itu sebagai ujian, kusebut itu sebagai petaka,

kusebut dengan panggilan apa saja untuk melukiskan
bahwa itu adalah derita.
Ketika aku berdoa, kuminta titipan yang cocok dengan
hawa nafsuku,
aku ingin lebih banyak harta,
ingin lebih banyak mobil,lebih banyak rumah,
lebih banyak popularitas,
dan kutolak sakit, kutolak kemiskinan,
Seolah semua "derita" adalah hukuman bagiku.
Seolah keadilan dan kasih Nya harus berjalan seperti
matematika :
aku rajin beribadah, maka selayaknyalah derita menjauh
dariku, dan
Nikmat dunia kerap menghampiriku.
Kuperlakukan Dia seolah mitra dagang, dan bukan
Kekasih.
Kuminta Dia membalas "perlakuan baikku", dan menolak
keputusanNya yang tak sesuai keinginanku,
Gusti, padahal tiap hari kuucapkan, hidup dan matiku
hanyalah untuk beribadah...
"ketika langit dan bumi bersatu, bencana dan
keberuntungan sama saja"
(WS Rendra)

quick post

2009-08-12T04:53:00.000-07:00

i'm back!! setelah hampir 1 bulan nggak update blog, banyak kejadian-kejadian yang heboh, salah satunya soal bomb2 di jakarta.

1. bittersweet

finally, i graduated from ypm on 26th of july. i'm soo happy and proud, because all of the hard works and lessons from my teachers guide me to stand in this graduation. as i told you, bittersweet. thats the sweet one. the bitter one : i'm no longer a student in ypm. i can't meet my music-mates everyday, i'm going to miss them, i'm going to miss the situation of the class. i used to rush to ypm after the school is over. now, i miss all that time, the fun, the stressful, the tests which made me nervous. all the bittersweet i've tasted there made me strong, become a hard worker, fight to beat my own fear on stage and also made me more mature. thank you ypm :)

2. W.S. Rendra meninggal dunia.

yang ini cukup mengena juga. menurut gw, karya-karyanya sangaat hidup. dari jaman gw sd, gw udah dikenalin sama puisi-puisi Rendra. gw inget, waktu gw mau lomba puisi karya Rendra, bokap gw sampe turun tangan. sejak gw ditunjuk buat lomba puisi itu gw mulai suka baca puisi-puisi lainnya. karya-karya Rendra tuh rasanya aslii banget dan ngenaa di hati. gw juga suka cara dia mengungkapkan pikirannya lewat puisi-puisinya. sayang banget, kita harus kehilangan seniman besar seperti dia. bagi gw, karya-karyanya sangat berpengaruh dan punya tempat di masyarakat.

3. BOMB-ing dan perburuan teroris

heraan kenapa sih berita yang ini mesti muncul! BOMB lagi BOMB lagi! pelakunya itu2 lagi. pikiran kayak apa sih yang mereka pegang? kenapa mesti bawa2 agama segala sih?? yang namanya agama tuh mana ada yang ngajarin bunuh2 orang pake bom. bunuh orang dapet pahala, masuk surga, ajaran darimana tuuh. nggak ada agama yang ngajarin hal kayak gitu. setelah gw perhatiin berita tentang pelaku-pelaku bom ini, ternyata katanya mereka itu orang2 berprestasi, pinter, soleh dan lalalalala (pokoknya yang baik2) tapi sayangnya pikiran mereka pada nggak waras. dan menurut gw, mereka juga nggak pinter. yang namanya pinter tu bisa milah mana yang bener mana yang baik. bisa menafsirkan sesuatu dengan baik. pokoknya siapapun orang itu, densus harus cepeeet tangkep, mau hidup2 atau mati, terserah deh yang penting keadilan harus ditegakkan!! no more bombs! no more terorists!! kalo mereka memegang prinsip, mereka mati bakal masuk surga karena membunuh orang2, menurut gw, mereka menderita di neraka. someday, they'll pay for what they've done!

kamis ceria

2009-07-09T21:58:00.000-07:00

hai hai haii semuaaa!! kali ini gw mau menceritakan peristiwa kemaren.haha. pergi jalan2 bersama jj, abel, topher dan kindol! maaaan, gw berasa paling normal sedunia kalo jalan2 sama mereka! yaa walaupun badan letih lelah lesu *apa sih lebay deh... maksudnya walaupun gw agak nggak enak badan gara2 terlalu capek beraktivitas gw tetep semangat '45 pergi jalan2.hehe.

gw sama abel janjian jam 9 pagi di ypm manggarai, tapi moloor jadi jam 10. yaa biasa lah anak jakarta kalo nggak molor aneh rasanya.haha. alhasil gw jam 10 kurang 20 menit baru jalan dari rumah padahal bintaro-manggarai makan waktu 45 menit sampe 1 jam. abel nyampe duluan di tempat dan sepertinya dia nunggu gw (agak) lama.hehe. sampe di ypm manggarai langsung cabs lagi ke gajah mada di daerah kota, rencananya sih mau jemput si kindol yang sedari pagi nunggu di situu. tapii oh tapii gw lupa mesti nyetak foto yang bakal dilukis. alhasil, gw dan abel brenti dulu di fuji film matraman buat nyetak foto. di sisi lain ternyata kindol udh di gajah mada menungguuu!! gw paniiikkk!! nggak enak sama kindol nunggu kelamaan...ohh noo!! gimana ini?? setelah selesai nunggu cetakan foto kita langsung cabs ke gajah madaaa..... ternyataaa KINDOL BELUM NYAMPE!! zzzzzzzzzzz.......rasanya kekiiii abeees padahal lewat sms dia bilang gw udh nunggu di gajah mada dari pagi.. meeen, gimana nggak keki loo.

lanjut cerita, gw, abel dan kindol bertiga nyari plukis jalanan di daerah kota. tepatnya di sebrang Gedung Kesenian Jakarta (gkj). awalnya kindol ngotot kalo di Institut Kesenian Jakarta (ikj) juga ada dan lebih bagus2. yang parahnya dia bilang gkj itu di dalemnya ada ikj-nya juga. gw sempet heran, terdiam bingung. masa sih?? perasaan gw dulu pentas balet disono nggak pernah ketemu universitas macem ikj tuh didalem gkj..?? alhasil kita tanya satpam dimana letak ikj......bukaan di gkj ternyata!! emang dasar kindol!hahahaha. karena nggak bisa menemukan ikj alhasil kita pesen lukisan di pinggir jalan. mulai deh aksi tawar menawar kayak di pasar. sampe akhirnya berhasil ditawar oleh kindol. emang dasar yaa si kindol otak bisnis, kalo urusan tawar menawar nggak kira2 nawarnya, tapi gpp lah yang penting turun sampe setengah hargaa lebih.hehehe. untung ada kindol tuh yang pinter nawar.hahahaha.

selesai masukin pesenan lukisan kita jalan lagi, kali ini cari makan. pertama sih ke es ragusa dulu. setelah pesen es krim, perut gw mulai cerewet minta makan siang. kita bertiga mulai menentukan mau makan di tempat manaa.. daaan berdasarkan saran salah seorang dari kita yaitu kindol, menyarankan untuk makan di dapur babah. dia bilang tempat itu enaaak dan terkenal. okeee deeeh, jalan lah kita ke dapur babah. masuk tempat dapur babah, gw sama abel udh celingak celinguk, plotot2an mata, senyum2 jaim. maaaan, tempatnya eliiit parah!! remang2, udah kayak mau dinner romantis ajee. tempatnya formal abiis. liat tamu2nya aja orang ber-jas semuaa. feeling gw udh nggak enak nih pengen liat menunya. begitu menu dikasih, abel langsung napsu buka dan liat menu. gw jg ikutan buka. astaga!! soto ayam aja harganya 45ribu!! padahal kalo soto ayam pinggir jalan 15ribu juga dapet kalii. bahkan ada makanan yang sampe 90ribuan. akhirnya gw sama abel mulai plotot2an nyalain kindol kasih saran yang "bagus banget". karena harga makanan yang mahalnya nggak kira2 kita bertiga keluar lagi dari restoran dengan alasan "ditungguin temen mbak". OH MY GOD!! keluar dari resto, gw sama abel udh ngedumel2 sama kindol yang daritadi senyum2 doang pasang tampang nggak bersalah.hahahaha

alhasil kita bertiga makan di tempat lain sambil ngobrol2, haha hihi, ngomongin ini itu sambil nunggu jj dan topher dateng. setelah jj dan topher dateng, suasana makin gila nggak karuan. ketawa2 kayak nggak kenal adat, ngomong seenak jidat. yaa begitulah nasib gw yang jalan dengan orang2 yang agak sedikit "sakit".hehehehe *kidding. well, dari situ kita semua cabs main bowling di ps. horeee! tapi sayangnya gw lagi nggak mood main entah kenapa gw mulai ngerasa capeek banget. hasil dari permainan bowling : abel pemenangnya, kindol paling dodol alias paling bontot skornya.haha. nih urutannya : abel, jj, topher, kindol.hahaha. setelah selesai main kita masih nge-tem di tempat bowling berfoto2 ria cuek bebek diliatin penjaganya.hehe. dan sebuaah insiden terjadii pada gw!! OOHH NOO!! maan, gw shiiooookk beraat!! insidennya nggak bisa gw jelasin disini sih.hehe. pokoknya, untung banget gw punya temen2 yang suppeeeer duppeeeer care plus baiik banget. jj dan abel super heroo gw!! tapi bener2 yang paling paling bikin gw kaget bin heran, abel mau nolongin gw disaat itu. bersyukur banget gw punya temen2 kayak mereka. gw rasa belum tentu tuh ada cowo yang mau berbuat kayak abel. thank you yaa bel :) haha. gw pasti doain lo sukses di karir musik, di univ ntar, dapet cewe idaman, pokoknya sukses deh bel!!

gw heepiiii banget jalan2 bareng kalian. yaa walaupun gw sendiri yang waras dan gw menjadi nyamuk karena jalan sama couple mulai dari couple normal sampe tidak normal, tapi gw seneng looh!haha. aahh sayang liburan bentar lagi usai, BT DEHH!! enak banget sih lo pada yang udah kuliah. ngiri ngiri ngiri ngiri!! ooh ada satu hal lagi yg lupa gw ceritakan. hari itu kindol memakai baju kebanggaannya. kaos narsis, kaos fans clubnya yaitu kaos dengan gambar diri sendiri bertuliskan "kindol, black and white edition". dengan bangganya dia pake tu kaos kemana2. hadooh, astaga!! temen gw yang satu ini emang paling aneeeh.hahaha. pokoknya kemaren itu..ceriia deh, ngakak2, ketawa muluu.. ada aja yang lucu. ckckckckck.

ini dia kaos narsis kindol

jj.gw.abel.topher.kindol

*happy to have you guys :)*

concert @ erasmus huis, 1st of july.

2009-07-01T22:23:00.000-07:00

well, i'm sooo happy! finally, i played at erasmus huis last night. it was very excited and wonderful night. i hope that the listeners also feel the way i feel :) that concert was the last concert for me. that is the sad one. that concert also the first concert i feel soo happy and excited in front of audience!!

aaaaa!! pokoknya gw seneeeng parah! gw juga heran sih kenapa gw bisa ngerasa semangat, lega dan seneng banget waktu di atas stage padahal biasanya gw mules2 masih deg2an kalo diatas stage. yang kali ini gw konser sama sekali gw nggak ada rasa takut atau deg2an diatas stage, cuma nunggu sebelum main aja gw deg2an.hahaha. di backstage kita semua udh mules2, ada yang mau ke belakang lah, pengen kentut, sakit perut pokoknya beragam deh. konser kali ini bener2 seruu bagi gw :)

pas jam 19.30 teng gong mulai bunyi. setelah bunyi gong 3 kali, konsernya mulai! session pertama dibuka sama gitar, lanjut session 2 piano. kebetulan gw session 2 jadi nunggu di suatu ruang sama anak2 piano. waktu session 1 berlangsung, beragam banget aksi dan tingkah laku temen2 gw yang lagi deg2an. ada yang lompat2 ga bisa diem, mondar-mandir kayak setrikaan. ada yang diem semedi, ada yang bolak-balik wc. ada yang minum berkali2, ada juga yang usil banget isengin yang lain. yaa bisa ditebak, yang iseng bin usil tuh si kinnata dan richard! target usilan : gw!! DAMN! kenapa mesti gw sebagai objek bully??!! dunia kejam! mana gw lagi deg2an sempet2nya dikerjain. sumpah males deh!! aneh2 deh tingkah dua makhluk dari pluto itu. aksinya aje udh bikin orang ketawa, aneh2 aja. kayaknya nggak pentiing bangeet deh! berhubung gw duduk berhadap2an sama dua makhluk aneh itu alhasil gw deh yang jadi saksi ke-aneh-an mereka.

session 2 dimulai, jantung makin kenceng kayak mau copot dari badan *lebay banget deh gw.hehe. gw giliran ketiga, jadi gw nunggu dulu beberapa saat. sambil nunggu gw sama pemain lain mencoba berpikiran positif yaa istilahnya ngomong yang muluk2 tentang penampilan di stage. contoh nih : nanti kita semua main bagus banget, nggak ada faktor x, nggak ada yang lupa, nggak ada salah. pokoknya seneeng deh. aaand it works!! dengan berpikiran positif itu membantu jalannya konser!!

selesai konser semua senang :) salam2an ngucapin makasiih sama penonton yang udah dateng. oh iyaa makasih juga yaa buat teman2 sekolah gw yang udah dateng..hmm ada JOJO, ADRIAN, (nii anak dugem dateng cuma nonton gw abis itu keluar.haha),CELLA, DESI, CATH, CHRIS, GE, YOSEPH, GERALD, RAPHAEL. waah aku senang looh!!hahahaha. jauh2 dari alsut dan bintaro nonton ke erasmus huis. semoga bisa jadi inspirasi dan motivasi buat kalian2 untuk bermusik yaa. yaa sekedar selipan, dari beberapa pengalaman gw, ketika lo merasa kehilangan sesuatu yang berharga atau seseorang yang berharga buat lo, lo sebenernya masih punya hal yang berharga yang nggak bisa diambil. pertama selalu ada Tuhan yang menemani lo. kedua lo punya musik yang selalu mengisi jiwa dan nggak membuat lo kesepian :) thank you for all your support :) thank you YPM, thank you Kak Levi Gunardi, thank you Kak Ayu Dwita, thank you Kak Puri, Kak Reynold, Kak Michael, Kak Kiki, Kak Ratna, Kak Adit, guru psiko YPM, guru2 teori gw dari tingkat elementer sampe tingkat 6, thank you mama dan papa, thank you teman2. a lotta love from me :)

*let the music fill your heart*

happy day

2009-06-25T22:47:00.000-07:00

jadi kemarin tanggal 25 juni adalah hari yaaang menyeenangkan!! rumah gw kedatengan orang2 yang supperr dupeer kocak2!! nama makhluk2nya adalah : oky, christin, angel dan calvin (anya). mereka temen2 smp gw.

kemarin mereka bikin rusuh rumah gw. mulai dari nonton dvd sediih sampe ketawa ngakak sampe cerita sereem. kayaknya lengkap banget deh. rasanya udh lamaaaa banget nggak ngumpul sama kawan2 gw yang ini. udah tengil, ngocol, baweeel, berisik aduuh pokoknya seruu deh main sama mereka.

gw : nii, gw udh siapin snack2 dooonk buat kalian *senyum2 bawa lays dan taro
oky : ah jadi nggak enak. eh jel, itu kayak chiki2 yang waktu itu kita makan sama ayu, itu apa ya?
angel : apa sih yang mana?
oky : itu jel yang enaak banget duuh apa yaa yang vi vi apa yaa?
angel : ooh iyaiya.
oky : *langsung nyamber--VAGETOZ!!
semua : *ngakak bareng!
angel : kok vagetoz sih itu mah nama band ki?!!
oky : ooh iyaaa yaa duuh, vikii namanya!
gw : *mikir kok nama snack aneh banget sih??!

bener2 dodool banget deh oky. satu lagi dia liat boneka jepang gitu yang cewe pake kimono, dikira bomberman. dengan polos dia nanya gw jawab, "eh win, kok dirumah lo ada bomber man dah?""mana ki??" dalam hati, perasaan gw nggak pernah main2 sama bomberman bomber woman apa lah ituu. oky masih nggak mau kalah nunjuk2 boneka jepang gw "itu, itu!" alhasil gw sadar yang ditunjuk sama dia...$%^#%$#^$% astaga okky!!!!

kita juga main monopoli dari jam 3.20 sampe jam 5 (rencana awal) tapi jadi moloor sampe jam 6. main pertama kali gw jatooh miskin, tanah paling dikit, duit juga dikit gara2 apes jatoh di tanah orang mulu. lama2 gw jadi kaya dan temen gw yang bangkrut sampe ngutang!hahaha. pokoknya ruusuuuh banget main monopoli. mulai dari yang jujur sampe curang, licik, dibodohiin. pokoknya monopolii terseruu deh!hahaha. setelah main monopoli, anya pulang! tapi sebelum pulang guess what?? dia numpang ke wc dulu dan pintunya nggak ditutup!! astaga!! geblek sumpah! untung aja gw sempet denger suara2 air yang tidak lazim di wc. gw juga berniat ke wc tadinya. tapi karena gw denger hal yang tidak lazim gw teriak nanya siapa yang di wc. ternyata ANYA YANG LAGI DI WC DAN PINTU NGGAK DITUTUP!! astaga anyaa....maaan kita semua cewe, cuma lo yang cowo!! gilaaa tuu anak!!

setelah anya pulang mulai tuuh crita2, ngegosip. mulai dari ngomongin kiamat, malaysia, benua2, afrika, setan, hamil, gosip anak ricci, guru2.. sampe berakhir dimana yaa?? hmm....hehe.. ooh ada satu hal lagi yang lucu waktu kita lagi cerita2 setan.

oky : *cerita seru ttg setan
itin : ah kalo crita2 gini gw jadi porno tau nggak.
gw : *shock denger kata2 yang baru disampaikan
angel :*ikut shock
oky : porno??
semua : parnoo kaleeee
itin : eh iyaa iyaa parnoo

ckckck. christin2...parno sama pornoo bedaaa istilaah man!! punya teman2 baik kayak mereka emang seruu bangeet! bisa membuat hari2 semakin cerah ceria.hahaha :) thanks friends for the day :) i really enjoy it. love you :) ayoo main lagiii..liburan masih panjaang.hehe.

*i won't forget you my friends*

two creatures from mars

2009-06-23T22:19:00.001-07:00

hai hai hai! kali ini gw mau cerita lagi tentang dua teman gw yang sangaat baiik tapi juga freeaakk, lucuu, plus UNIK! dua manusia ini gw masukin ke kategori unik karena beberapa alesan.

let me introduce you the first one. his name is Kinnata Niko Arjuna (bener ga tuh spellnya?)haha. ngomongin soal ke-freak dan keunikan temen gw yang satu ini bakal nggak abis2!! banyaknya bejibun. gw rasa hampir setiap hari dia melakukan kekonyolan, ke-freak-an, dan hal ajaib2 yang lain. mulai dari tampang aja udah kocak, polooos bangeet kalo ngomong, tapi jaiilnyaa bukaan maiin. itu salah satu modalnya, tampang polos tapi aslinya jaiil sangat. temen gw yang ini bener2 paling freak seduniaaa, seumur2 baru sekali gw kenal orang kayak gini.. astaga banget deh! coba kalo lo kenal, sering ngobrol trus ketemu sama ni orang...gw yakiin banget pendapat lo juga pasti samaa. oke, crita tentang keunikan dia. suatu hari dia bikin notes jalan2 di fb pake bahasa jadool seakan2 mau proklamasi. contoh : "Dengan ini menjatakan bahwasannya atjara koempoel2 pk3 ypm jang tertanggal toejoehbelas boelan joeni di-buatal-ken doeloe.. Hal-hal jang menyangkoet perobahan jadual akan disampaikan dalam tempoh jang sesingkat-singkatja." astaga!! dia tag2 banyak orang (1 angkatan pk 3). gmn orang2 nggak juriing baca tulisan kayak gitu ada oe oe tj tj ua ua, dikira kita masih primitip kali yaa. satu hal lagi, dia juga sms dengan bahasa2 alien, contoh : "maka daripada itu, saya sebagai pribadi sujud menyembah master windi untuk mentitiskan sebahagian daripada sekil jang dipunja master. untuk drpd itu trimalah sujud sembah hamba yang hina dina ini." ngemeeng apaa siih ni orang??!! pertama gw baca gw nggak ngerti, kedua kali gw baca gw pikir ni orang ngerjain, ketiga kali gw baca baru gw ngerti. padahal yaa orang ini awalnya dieeem banget, anak baik penurut rajin (jangan GR lo!) tapi entah kenapa mulai ber-metamorfosis jadi entah apa laaah. gara2 siapaa??? menurut salah satu pendapat temen gw sih, karena ari (temen gw yang lain yang sedikit normal). oh iyaa..ni orang juga punya nama artis yaitu kindol alias kinnata idol. what?? idol? gini critanya, suatu hari dia telat masuk kelas kontrapung dan pake kaos indonesian idol, parahnya lagi masuk kelas cengir2 bak artis idol jadilah pada hebring. crita kedua, suatu hari dia nonton konser piano, disuruh isi buku tamu sama salah seorang temen gw namanya kiann. jahatnya, kiann dengan sengaja nyuruh kinnata tulis namanya "kinnata idol" di buku tamu. dengan polosnya si kinnata tulis di buku tamu "kinnata idol". OMG!! entah dari planet mana dia berasal. kalo mw dibeberin satu persatu kekonyolan makhluk satu ini bakal panjang abeees! *foto menyusul, minta ijin dulu dari orang yang bersangkutan.hehe

the second one is Abel Prasetyo. kalo makhluk yang satu ini suppeeer duppeeer suka keceplosan, lebaay, kurang lebih dodol, tapii baaiiikk dan loyaaall banget sama temen. coba nih yaa rahasia apa yang lo kasi tau sama abel? pasti bisa deh kalo lo bujuk2 dikiit eh ngomong juga diaa..hehehe. dia ini partner dari kinnata. udah kayak soulmate deh mereka berdua. sampe2 jalan2, makan, duduk juga berdua (gosip affair). oops! tanya aja deh hal2 ttg kinnata pasti ni orang nomer 1 yang tau. btw, bapak abel ini rencana bakal berangkat ke amrik looh! wueehheee jadi new york-ers doonk. sayangnya dia nggak ke NY. dia ke chicago buat nerusin pendidikan musiknya. orang yang satu ini doyan jazz! suruh aja dia main balonku dalam jazz, pasti bisa. mau dijadiin apa juga bisa gw rasa, mulai dari apa nih balonku versi pop, classic, jazz sampeeee dangduut!! abel ini juga helpful banget jadi orang! oke balik lagi tentang ke-freak-annya cukup tentang baik2nya. jadi dia yang paling panik begitu foto affairnya keluar. jadi ada foto affair antara kinnata dan abel, duduk berdua disebuah restoran (setting foto di sebuah resto tapi orang2 nyangka itu di puncak) lagi berdua mesra banget hadep2an sambil menatap pemandangan. sriiuus banget tampang mereka. pokoknya romantis. gw nggak bakal post disini sih fotonya, sereem orangnya ngambeek.hehe. abel ini suka ngelawak2 lebaay, kadang lucuu banget bisa ampe ngakak2 tapi kadang saking konyooolnya dan yaa kadang gw nggak ngerti alhasil cuma bisa senyum2 sok ngerti. satu hal nih kalo kita semua lagi diem adem ayem, tiba2 dia bisa ngelawak nyerocos2 sendiri bikin yang lain cuma ngerut alis dan geleng2 kepala. *ga tau deh itu reaksi karena lucu tapi lagi males ketawa atau penuh rasa kasihan karena terlalu konyol. duuh, coba deh kalo lo pada kenal sama ni orang. tiap ngelawak tuh adaa aja yang konyool plus dodool banget lawakannya. yaa sekarang ini dia lagi agak2 bersedih dan cemburuu gitu pasca kindol pernah nginep di rumah richard malem2 abis latian gabungan. ditambah lagi si kindol mulai pindah kelain hati.hahahahahaha. yang sabar yaa bel....hehehe. *foto menyusul, minta ijin dulu dari orang yang bersangkutan.hehe

sebenernya gw janji sama abel nggak crita ttg "affair" mereka sih, tapii apa boleh buat itu foto HOT sih abisnya. ditambah lagi statement2 kindol yang mendukung foto itu.hehe. kalo abel sih malu2 kucing ngakuin tu foto. intinyaa....punya temen2 kayak dua makhluk ituu sangaat menyenangkan :) bisa membuat duniaa dan hari2 lo penuuh ketawa dan seruuuu karena keunikan mereka. untung banget gw masuk ypm, bisa ketemu sama temen2 yang unik2.hehe. mereka cuma sebagian kecil dari beberapa orang lain yang unik2 dan freak2.hehe. pokoknya friends forever yaa guys :) thank you for the best memories :) buat abel, goodluck di amrik!! kalo pulang bawain gw oleh2 yaa (teuteep.hehe), plus crita2 yaa pengalaman dengan bule.hehe. buat kindol sukses buat murid2nya dan ambisi muridnya tahun ini ranking semua.hehe.

*friends make your day colorful and wonderful*

bestfriend numero uno.

2009-06-18T18:11:00.000-07:00

post gw kali ini, gw mau cerita tentang sahabaat gw yang mau pergi ke aussie. first of all, let me introduce my bestfriend. she is Felia Tunggal. she is a singer, my BFF, and a great make-up artist. *masakannya juga ueeenakk!!

me.felia (BFF!)

gw kenal sama dia waktu gw pindah sekolah ke Laurensia. well, pertama masuk emang gw nggak langsung temenan sama dia, tapi melalui berbagai kejadian2 dulu. pertama temenan sama orang ini gw langsung ngerasa ada kesamaan. persamaan yang pertama kali ditemukan adalah perasaan _______ (isi sendiri deh-ada deh) waktu pertama kali duduk, belajar di kelas loren. makin lama gw temenan sama dia, mulai keliatan deh perbedaan2 antara gw sama dia yang saangaat amaat bertolak belakang. ibaratnya 180 derajat beda banget. mulai dari selera baju, sifat2, dll. tapi yang suka bikin kita berantem karena perbedaan sifat yang beda banget. contoh nih, gw termasuk orang yang lelet, sedangkan dia orang yang gesiit dan maunya cepet. gw juga termasuk orang yang kalo ngomong mikir2 dulu beribu kali, dia termasuk orang yang ceplas-ceplos omongannya tajem. gw termasuk orang yang perhatian sama ini itu, dia cueekk bebek. banyak perbedaan sifat diantara gw sama dia. dari situ kita berteman. dari situ kita juga belajar satu sama lain. mulai dari gw yang kalo ngomong masih mikir2, sampe sekarang kalo ngomong all out ceplas-ceplos, kalo yang suka yaa suka, yang nggak suka - bodo amat!haha. tapii walaupun perbedaan kita banyak dan mencolok, ada satu persamaan yang bikin gw deket sama dia. musik! secara dia juga suka nyanyi dan gw suka main piano. yeah, she is also one of my musical friends :)

banyaak banget kejadian yang gw alami sama felia. mulai dari yang luucuuu sampe ngakak, nyebelin sampe berantem parah...semua itu dirangkum dalam 1 setengah tahun. persahabatan gw sama dia emang nggak selalu mulus, ada juga berantem2 karena salah paham sampe ngomongin ini itu, bentak2an, nangis bareng dan akhirnya baikkan ngomongin semuanya, maaf2an. mulai dari ngata2in yang kejeem banget sampe yaang baiik banget. semuaa itu yang membuat gw bertambah dewasa dan belajar lagi dari pengalaman persahabatan gw kali ini. mungkin pandangan orang persahabatan gw cuma sebentar dan kurang deket. well, terserah dan bodoo amat orang bilang apa, toh yang tau gw sama felia :) rahasia2 apa aja yang udah kita sharing bareng, gosipin apa aja, ngomongin siapa ajaa (oopsie)haha dan melakukan hal-hal apa ajaa. hal yang paling sering dilakukan telponan sampe berjam2 ngomongin orang, curhat2.haha. kegiatan telponan itu biasanya bisa makan waktu 1-3 jam.haha. intensitasnya suka2 deh.haha.

tapiii feliaa mauu pindaaaaah!!! OOH NOO!! pindah ke melbourne. well, hari ini dia udah berangkat ke surabaya dan meninggalkan jakarta selama 1 tahun. dia berangkat ke melbourne dari surabaya. jadi intinya, hari ini (lebih tepatnya pagi ini) pagi terakhir dia di jakarta sebelum dia balik lagi 1 tahun mendatang. aaaah! gw sediih bangeet! kemaren juga party terakhir gw bareng2 sama dia. waktu mau pulang rasanyaa beraat bangeet pisah sama felia. sampe peluk2an diluar beberapa kalii lamaa banget, (hampir) nangis bareng. i wish i could have one more hug.huhu. sebelum dia berangkat akhirnya gw sempet menyelesaikan scrapbook yang dari jauh2 hari udah gw buat khusus buat dia. isinya foto2 kita mulai darii jaman rambut pendeek sampe jaman rambut panjang, mulai dari jaman pake kacamata sampe softlense. semuaa gw tempel di scrapbook itu. plus ada gelang friendship yang bakal gw pake terus. and im soo happy coz she likes it soo much. pas banget, gelang friendship itu ternyata cocok sama dress yang bakal dia pake buat party ivy. i'm goiing too misss heeer soo damn mucccch!!!!!!

kayaknya kalo gw ceritain semua tentang persahabatan gw mungkin bisa panjaaanng abis berlembar2 kali yaa. maybe, next post gw ceritain lagii tentang persahabatan gw :) intinya persahabatan gw kali ini, short but worth. persahabatan gw emang baru 1 setengah tahun, tapi isi dari persahabatan gw sama dia lebih dari 1 setengah tahun. even though it is only one and a half year but it is very precious for me :) i do love my bestfriend :)

*i'm going to miss my bestfriend*

2 minutes post.

2009-06-04T05:22:00.000-07:00

lamaa nggak post blog gara2 ul blok semingguan, sibuk mikirin projek, pokoknya tugas-tugas sekolah!! buuttt...finally..semua udahh selesai!! horeee!! ulangan blok selesai, projek selesai!! bisa bernafas agak sedikit lega ( blm lega banget karena masih ada rapotan ).haha. yaa sisanya sih menjelang terima raport acara bersama, class meeting, aksi sosial...yaa pokoknya acara khas sekolah. anyway, setelah nganggur gw mencoba google-ing! iseng-iseng gw cari quotes friendship. ada 1 quotes yang menarik banget buat gw dan pas banget buat persahabatan gw. menurut gw quotes yang ini mungkin nggak semua bisa terima dan quotes ini juga belum tentu berlaku di persahabatan beberapa orang. setelah gw baca bener-bener, it really fits to my friendship :) walaupun kata-katanya simple banget dan kalimatnya pendek tapi punya arti yang mendalam. so, here is the quote :

"A True Friend Stabs You In The Front"

-Oscar Wilde-

true colours

2009-05-12T08:46:00.000-07:00

baru-baru ini gw memperhatikan lirik dari satu lagu. dari dulu gw udah denger sih lagu ini. lagunya emank enak. awalnya gw nggak memperhatikan lirik lagunya. tapi setelah temen gw nyanyi lagu ini entah kenapa gw jadi pengen perhatiin lirik lagunya. dan setelah gw perhatiin liriknya, sangat amat BAGUSS!! gw jadi makin suka. bener2 menggambarkan persahabatan gw yang dulu maupun sekarang :)

TRUE COLOURS

You with the sad eyes

Don't be discouraged, though i realize it's hard to

take courage in a world, full of people,

you can lose sight of it

And the darkness inside you

will make you feel so small

But I see your true colors, shining through

I see your true colors, and that's why I love you

So don't be afraid, to let them show

Your true colors, true colors

Are beautiful, like a rainbow

Show me a smile, don't be unhappy

I can't remember when i last saw you laughing

If this world makes you crazy and

you've taken in all you can bare

You call me up- because you know I'll be there

But I see your true colors, shining through

I see your true colors, and that's why I love you

So don't be afraid, to let them show

Your true colors, true colors

Are beautiful, like a rainbow

I can't remember when I last saw you laughing

If this world makes you crazy

and you take in all you can bare

You call me up- because you know I'll be there

And I see your true colors, shining through

I see your true colors and thats why I love you

So don't be afraid to let them show

Your true colors, true colors,

True colors, are shining through

I see your true colors and that's why i love you

So don't be afraid to let them show

Your true colors, true colors

Are beautiful, like a rainbow

2009-05-11T08:23:00.000-07:00

Music is not about a duty. It is more about dedication :)

isn't it ??

result

2009-04-02T08:04:00.000-07:00

today is the happiest day ever!! i'm super duper very berry strawberry happy HAPPY and HAPPY!! i'm so excited, happy and surprise about the result...

daritadi pagi, gw udah nggak bisa mikir jernih..di sekolah pikiran gw juga udah melayang entah kemana. gw udah nggak sabar ambil raport ypm! gw udah nggak sabar liat nilai gw. tapi juga dari pagi gw udah deg2an setengah mampus. takut hasil gw jelek. takut nggak lulus. takut nggak dapet ijasah. pokoknya penuh dengan pertanyaan deh!! kerjaan gw di sekolah cuma duduk, diem, mencoba mendengarkan walaupun pikiran susah banget diatur, trus tengak-tengok jam melulu. gw bener2 menunggu jam 3. karena jam trima raport piano dimulai dari jam 3. jadi gw udah berandai-andai dan berimajinasi apa yang terjadi di ypm saat jam 3..haha lebay juga gw.hihi.. selesai sekolah, dimobil gw langsung buru2 buka hp. ada sms dari hira masuk.. dia selametin gw.. tapi gw ga tau kenapa.. lohh??!! alhasil gw telpon deh anaknya. eh dia nggak mau kasih tau. dia cuma bilang cepetan ambil raport. okee deh. gw jadi semakin nggak sabar. ada apaan nihh?? pulang, mandi, cabut lagi ke YPM sama nyokap ambil raport.haha.

and finally!! i got my piano report!! it is a SURPRISE!! i can't believe it!! nggak nyangka banget gw bisa dapet nilai segitu dan ranking segitu. OH MY GOD!! bener2 terimakasih banget!! gw dapet rank 3. it stated that i get High Honors 3rd place. and "The Sergei Rachmaninoff Prize in Conjunction with the YPM 7th Windu Year Anniversary". Well, that's a big surprise for me!! gw bener2 nggak nyangka banget gw bisa dapet rank segitu. soalnya tahun lalu gw nggak dapet ranking dan yaa biasa2 ajaa..haha.. dan gw pikir juga paling tahun ini naik tapi mungkin rank 7 atau 8 gitu. eeeehhh 3...!! OH MY GOD!! gw juga dapet prize untuk lagu2 yang lain yang gw bawain. semua lagu yang gw bawain saat resital piano akhir dapet prize semua.

i'm so happy!! and i would like to say thanks to everybody and everyone that support me!! :) thanks banget. thanks God, parents, teachers and also FRIENDS!! thanks mama-papa yang udah dukung gw secara materi maupun non materi. thanks Kak Levi Gunardi yang udah sabar banget ngadepin gw, ngajarin gw untuk menghargai dan mencintai musik. that's the point. thanks buat semua guru2 ypm dan guru2 musik gw yang udah ngajarin gw MUSIK. thanks juga buat temen2 gw yang udah dukung gw, kasih gw support, mau dengerin keluhan gw, mau dengerin kegilaan gw walaupun kadang2 bikin lo pada pengen muntah2..haha... well, thanks buat SHERYNNE, chris, kevin giarto, yoseph, raphael, alain, desi, kezia, rey reza, mozes, jennifer, hira, kian, adrian, abel, denon, ceryl dan semuanyaa yang ga bisa gw sebutin satu2.. semua temen2 gw yang udah dukung dan doain gw.. terimakasih sedalam2nya.. :)

next to do...i have to prepare for my last concert.. well, maybe it will held on may or june. gw harus mulai siapin lagu buat konser and do my best for this!! coz i'm going to miss YPM soo damn MUCH!! i'm going to miss the class! i'm going to miss the friends!! i'm going to miss the teachers!! and i'm going to miss all the FUN thingy that we've been through!!

thanks YPM :) and special thanks to kak Levi Gunardi as my teacher.

2009-04-01T07:30:00.000-07:00

Someday - John Legend

As days go by

And fade to nights

I still question

Why you left

I wonder how

It didn't work out

But now you're gone

And memories

All I have for now

But no it's not over

We'll get older

We'll get over

We'll live

To see the day

That I hope for

Come back to me

I still believe that

We'll get it right again

We'll come back

To life again

We won't say

Another goodbye again

You'll live

Forever with me

Someday, someday

We'll be together

Someday, someday

We'll be together

I heard someday

Might be today

Mysteries of destinies

They are somehow

And are someway

For all we know

They come tomorrow

For today

My eyes are open

My arms are raised

For your embrace

My hands

Are here to mend

What is broken

To feel again

To walk on the face

I believe there

Is more to life

Oh, I love you

Much more

Than life and still

I believe

I can change your mind

Revive

What is dying inside

And someday, someday

We'll be together

Someday, someday

We'll be together

Someday, someday

We'll be together

Someday

i love this song!! menurut gw liriknya bener2 bagus.. dan kebetulan lagi pas juga sama hal yang gw rasain sekarang. well, one of my fam (grandma's sist) passed away. i really love her. she was a teacher. she taught me so many things about math. dia nggak nikah tapi dia sayaang banget sama semua keponakannya termasuk cucu-cucunya. gw juga selalu inget kalo dulu gw suka banget nginep di rumahnya dan dia suka critain gw dongeng sebelum tidur. bahkan crita2 sereeem biar gw cepet tidur nggak banyak ngomong lagii..hihi.. well, bye ie-po (that's what i called her). rest in peace. i'm going to miss you :( someday, we'll meet.