have you? (2)

have you ever felt like...


you miss someone/people/things 'til you can't comprehend yourself ?
you miss someone/people/things 'til your chest hurts ?
you miss someone/people/things 'til suddenly your heart slowly changes the beat ?
you miss someone/people/things 'til you just want to scream it out loud ?
you miss someone/people/things 'til you want to call them back ?
you miss someone/people/things 'til you feel like empty ?


i'm just wondering.


i hope i wouldn't be the only one who feel it.


ah i miss home. i miss jakarta. i miss my parents. i miss my old friends. i miss the old days.


only God knows.

Surat Kecil untuk Indonesia

Dear my beloved homeland INDONESIA,

DIRGAHAYU KE-66 INDONESIAKU :)

Indonesia, sejujurnya sedih melihat keadaanmu sekarang dari negeri seberang. mendengar berita pilu darimu hampir setiap hari. berita pilu tentang pemerintahan. berita pilu tentang keadaan alam-mu. berita pilu tentang situasi kota Jakarta. berita pilu tentang korupsi. 

cukup lelah mendengar kepiluan yg terjadi. sampai kapan-kah aku harus mendengar berita pilu darimu? 

yakinlah, selalu ada celah kecil dimana ada secercah cahaya masuk ketika kamu berjalan dalam kegelapan. selalu ada harapan akan fajar.

bangkit, Indonesia! jadilah macan Asia yg mengaum seperti kala dulu.

With love,

GW

mari tetap optimis dan berdoa untuk Indonesia :)

have you?

have you ever had a bad feeling?

like something bad is happening.

like you can feel it but you don't know yet.

like you try to think as positive as you can,

but it doesn't work.

like there are signs which reinforce your bad feeling.

i hope there wouldn't be any heartbreaking news.

it is hard, but it is possible

summer semester will be over in 2 weeks and i'm so so so happy for it. afterward, i'll be happily having a 3-week-holiday. well, at least i have a 3-week-without-books to relax and to rest my brain :p 3 weeks that i can use to prepare myself for a big change. i know that there'll be lots of changes start from september. another changes. i just faced changes last year, leaving jakarta to study abroad, leaving my family and friends, leaving my comfortable life. i dealt with them. although it was very hard in the beginning, it wasn't impossible to deal with it. hey! i proved it. I SURVIVE :D oh yeah...and soon, i have to face other changes which is (maybe) quite challenging.

changes that i have to face :

1. moving from homestay to apartment

2. live by myself

3. take care of myself

4. first year to second year of university

5. prepare my own meal

6. meeting new people

7. dealing with different groups

8. i'll be 2-4x busier than before

i don't know how i'm going to deal with all of them. i'm sure i can do it. i know that it is not impossible to deal with the changes. however, i have to admit that there'll be some tough time for me. oh well....don't need to worry about it :) it's been taken care of. He takes care everything. i do believe and i shall not worry too much :)

(?)

love.

there is only one word for love, but there are different forms of love.

love between mother and daughter. mother and son. father and daughter. father and son. siblings. best friends. boyfriend and girlfriend. husband and wife. teacher and student. fans and idol. 

how can you tell the difference? 

do you think linguist should make new words for the difference?

people say, "love can be deceiving"

it can be.

maybe, the reason of "love can be deceiving" because there is only one word to tell someone that you love him/her. however, that one word has lots of meanings.

Also, it can be interpreted in different ways.

it can be shown in different forms.

But, one thing that is certain about love.

it is sweet and wonderful.

it is good. it is positive.

it can change someone to be a better person.

it can conquer the bad things. the evil things.

it is not egoist, nor envious.

it is not arrogant, nor judgemental.

it gives you strength.

strength to live. strength to strive and struggle. strength to forgive.

it gives you courage.

courage to conquer your fear.

possibly, it can do something beyond your subconscious.

surprisingly, it can do something beyond your ability.

it is peaceful and genuine. harmonious.

and never ends.

If it is love, it won't be deceiving.

what else can you say about love? :)

(1 Corinthians : 4-13)

25 random thoughts - july

Hey there!

i decided to do some random thoughts here, since i haven't made any :D

1. thank God for every breath that i take, for every moment i'm alive, for everything :)

2. thank You, dear Jesus for answering my prayer

3. thank God! i got accepted to 2nd year UBC :)

4. will be pursuing Bachelor of Science in Food, Nutrition and Health

5. Isaiah 41:10

6. it is summer in vancouver!

7. happy birthday, dear you. this is your month. i do hope the very best for you :)

8. roses! they are so pretty. i never get bored just looking at'em.

9. someone bailed out in last minutes of the service. it annoyed me. 

10. boggie is my new baby :)

11. woman, be yourself! brain + good attitude + genuine heart = beauty ;)

12. we found a really peaceful beach close to ubc :) love the quietness.

13. i know there'll be some changes in my life. i have no worries.

14. lately, i am sort of "addicted" to a song. lebih indah by adera :) indonesian song (Y)

15. dream big! work hard, pray, believe and make it happen!

16. although i know next semester will be tougher, i'm kinda excited for the next semester.

17. music ministry will do a service on July 17. we are invited by them to participate in their fundraising event. singing for Jesus!

18. i decided to take marketing class for 2 weeks only (during summer). so i only have 1 week break. people were like "are you kidding me? taking another course in summer?" well, why not? ;)

19. oh dear! i have chemistry midterm this week >.<

20. another song that i do love :'') falling in love with Jesus - Jonathan Butler

21. i miss jakarta. yes, i always do :')

22. time does fly so fast. i'm almost done with my 1st year university courses.

23. i will move out by myself. i will definitely miss my housemom :''') 

24. what's on august? i'm sure it'll be exciting ;)

25. it means THANK YOU in russian :) (read : spasiba). thanks for reading my post!

have an awesome july, folks ;)

"The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries or the way she combs her hair." - Audrey Hepburn

two days ago, i watched a talk show with my housemom. i've never watched this show before but what interest me was the news! an 8-year-old girl got a botox(?!) are you kidding me?? *jawsopened* honestly, that is the most stupid and the most ridiculous news i've ever heard. that was pretty shocking. have you ever thought some kind of chemical (let's just say toxic) is being injected to your face? i repeat : being injected to your face. personally, i will not let myself do that...not even give a single try. it was shocking and sad at the same time though. look at her age...8 years old!

after listening to this news, my housemom and i had a really short-interesting conversation about the concept of beauty. she said, "Most woman nowadays seem to have opposite concept of beauty to woman in 1970's, where inner beauty and intelligence are vital." my spontaneous comment was, "oh wow! 1970's woman are smarter. that is so pathetic, though. i mean pathetic for woman nowadays who still think to alter their looks for the sake of beauty." she told me about woman in 1970's. she said that woman in 1970's weren't taught to be aggressive. most woman in 1970's were taught to be an educated person. intelligence is part of their beauty. they weren't taught to be weak and cheap. they were taught to be elegant. they weren't taught to go after a man.

i agree with her. inner beauty and intelligence are important. obviously, most woman now care about how their looks and shapes instead of their personalities. oh, come on woman! i'm sorry to say this...but seriously i dislike those who seem to be cheap. what i mean by cheap : spoiled, chasing after a guy for his money/job/popularity, dependent and 'stupid' - trading love for sex. well, you name it, folks!

note this : woman, you are beautiful! you don't need to alter your looks. you don't need to focus on your weight. however, improve your inner beauty. build your self-esteem through improving personalities and intelligence. i'm sure that everyone can see your beauty :)

"The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mode but the true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives the passion that she shows. The beauty of a woman grows with the passing years" - Audrey Hepburn 

"Character contributes to beauty. It fortifies a woman as her youth fades. A mode of conduct, a standard of courage, discipline, fortitude, and integrity can do a great deal to make a woman beautiful" - Jacqueline Bisset

brain + behaviour = beauty ;)

"When you’re in love, sometimes you have to swallow your pride, and sometimes you have to keep your pride. It’s a balance. But when the relationship is right, you find the balance." 

Emily Giffin (Something Borrowed)

old town with FUN weirdos (besties) :)

old town! so last tuesday, me and my besties went to old town in jakarta :) before i tell you the story, let me introduce my weirdos also known as my besties :p they are Kinnata Niko Arjuna (Kindol) and Jennifer Aliwarga (Jedut).

our meeting point is at ITC Permata Hijau at 8 am. we should've gone by 8, but since Kindol was late, we went at 9. honestly i was a bit mad when he said that he would be late. it wasn't the first time. so i made up a quite "evil" plan. i pretended to be kidnapped by strangers. i pretended that i was lost somewhere. he believed it. he was panic and stress. he said that it was such a depressing moment when you are trapped in a traffic jam with two people phoning you again and again, telling you that they are scarred, they are lost nowhere because of you. HAHA! i'm really sorry for that. but to be honest, it was fun to trick you in that situation. HILARIOUS! :D

finally, we arrived at Gondangdia Station :) that was the first time i took train in jakarta. ok i'm sorry for being a spoil girl. well i never thought that i would take a train here, in jakarta! and i never thought that jakarta had a nice place like old town.

we went to Museum Bank Indonesia, Museum Wayang and Batavia Cafe. i really like Museum Bank Indonesia. i never thought that jakarta had a really nice and well-preserved place like this. the old town itself is amazing. the buildings are quite old. the architecture and the design of the buildings are unique. it is the heritage from Netherlands (correct me if my spelling is wrong) haha. it was quite hot on that day. but hey, it doesn't matter if you go with two fun people. 

GONDANGDIA :) starting point

three of us @ museum bank indonesia

one of the very old buildings :)

@ Batavia Cafe - i love the design of this cafe

i did enjoy my time with them. it was a great trip. lots of silly things happened. and great friends :) i call it as wonderful day with great friends :D oh btw, i haven't mentioned about my missing friend : Abel Prasetyo. he is still in chicago. i wish he could join this trip though. hopefully we can do this next year..and should be complete which is 4 of us.

that's all that i wanna share about my trip. have a nice day, people! :D

2011

goodbye 2010! hello 2011!

life is always full of goodbyes and hellos. when there is a goodbye, i believe there'll be lots (more) hellos :)

well if you ask me what my resolutions are for this year, i can't say much. i hope everything will be better than before. everything will be greater than before.

ok, i'm trying to make a resolution. well these are just a simple one. i think it is more to targets or goals rather than resolution. (HAHA)

1. get A at least in one of my courses. with no C :)

2. volunteer more

3. transfer to UBC :) *this is my dream university*

4. get work permit

5. get U.S visa

6. travel to victoria on summer

7. go home (JAKARTA, I MISS YOU)

8. sleep at least 8-9 hours a day

9. have a good resume for this year (work experience and volunteers)

well i guess that's all :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011, PEOPLE!

GOD BLESS Y'ALL MORE AND MORE AND MORE :*